One way I go from feeling power-less to affect the large world out there – which is in the process of waking up from the longest-imaginable sleep – to power-full is to remember that my absolutely most powerful position and best contribution is to change, to refashion, to transform myself. Never mind that I’m now […]
Speak of a Beachhead
Before thinking about bringing peace to the world, we may need to bring peace to ourselves. This article is part of that process for me. I notice I’m not creating as much residue, as much debris in my wake as I used to. I’m still dropping a royal clanger every now and then, but not […]
Thank You to the Troll Under the Bridge … and Goodbye
I’ve reached the end of the road with an act of mine, a racket, a number. I’ve processed this number before. I’m processing it now at a much deeper level. Its presenting sign is that I wake up in the morning and I’m not cheerful. Nothing has happened that I be anything but cheerful, but […]
Cleansing the Will
How often do we talk about the will? But is it not decisive in what we do and don’t do? From the growth work I’ve done – mostly publicly – since starting the blog, I’m willing to state a hypothesis: The strength of the will varies inversely proportional to the strength of the vasanas. With […]
Now Arrogance Surfacing
I’m watching myself and have to share some noticeings. Sharing them is the final step in processing. I can be as self-serving as I like when I’m processing internally. But when I share, it isn’t as easy. The share is out there. It’s public. So I want to call myself on something. I need a […]
Everything Hid Shall be Known
I’ve said this is a rich time for the student of awareness. Creative chaos shakes everything up and makes change possible. There’s a saying from Jesus in this regard. He stated that “there is nothing covered that shall not be revealed, and hid, that shall not be known.” I think this is the time he […]
Patterned Responses as Phantoms
I’m buoyed up to hear how much time Patricia Cota-Robles gave to purification because, for me, that yields the most welcome and beneficial results among things I can do while waiting for Godot. On the awareness path, what that waiting means is to watch and pay particular attention to things that are taking me in […]
The Destination is Worth the Rigor
When I think of Ascension as a journey up a mountain, I weep. Because for me, that’s how it’s seemed. I could have said pulling myself out of a swamp. Or crossing a desert. These are just images, but I feel so tired looking at the journey from this vantage point. It’s been a long […]
Autopilot Set to “Learn”
The way things seem to go, it’s often only after a condition has departed that we learn what it was and what it did. For example, hostility having been recognized and left, I’m now beginning to see some things about it. Hostility has many poses. One of them, I’m now seeing, is “Don’t mess with […]
And Then, Another Bridge
I’m finding there comes a time when a bridge is crossed. It’s one of many bridges, one of them being Ascension itself. (1) And, like so much else, for the experience to flower, I have to consciously recognize what’s happening. I have to move from unconscious awareness of the thing in question to conscious awareness. […]
The Worst Possible Virus: The Inner Hitler
When tension increases, awareness decreases. The converse should also be true: When tension decreases, (1) awareness should increase. And so, in the midst of chaos, my awareness appears to be increasing. Having dropped Constant Comment, weathered the eruption of Humiliation that followed, (pant, pant) I notice that I have reached a place of … well, […]
What’s the Significance and Effectiveness of Personal Cleansing?
All this personal cleansing that I’m doing – and we’re doing – what’s its significance and how effective is it? The significance of personal cleansing is that it removes the various obstacles to realization (enlightenment). I’ve talked about the obstacles as vasanas (or core issues), habitual behavior patterns, and … I now see … the […]
A Lifetime’s Humiliation Coming Up
I’d like to illustrate here the application of the upset clearing process to a really-tough vasana (or core issue). (1) I’m going to raise to awareness a feeling that’s difficult to experience. It’s so strong that it’s been roasting me alive for three days now. Constant Comment may be gone but my vasanas live! A […]
Embodiment: There Can Only Be One – Part 2/2
(Concluded from yesterday.) I decreed my oneness. I commanded that I be one from this moment onwards. And I did become one. And no sooner had I done that, then another, higher part of myself returned to me like a Slinkey reassembling itself. The one followed the other in rapid succession. These things never come […]
Embodiment: There Can Only Be One – Part 1/2
If you were the Humpty Dumpty man, had a great fall, and smashed into a million pieces, how would you put yourself back together again? What mantra/affirmation would you use? I am one? Sixty-six years after dissociating in that way, I’m nearing the point of becoming one again. (1) I never want to say the […]