And now for a change of pace…. I don’t know about you, but I’m always looking for what drives me. And when I think I’ve found it, I then look to see if that’s common with others, as in a pattern, trend, custom, rule, etc. Or is it just an aberrant thought, sent my way […]
Acuity of Awareness Increasing
I just came across this passage from a 2012 reading, two days after writing this article, which rang such a bell for me in light of what’s discussed here: “Another measure, my beloved ones, is to do with your mental acuity, including interest in things of the mental body – and, dear Steve, you have […]
Clearing the Space
Here I am doing what I love. And here I am serving the Mother at the same time. (1) And here I am doing what Michael asked me to do (go up along with everyone else and write about it). I’m still amazed that doing what I love could also be serving the Mother and […]
Standing on the Mountain Top – Part 1/2
I read a passage from the Mother and it unleashed a vasana (or core issue) which I’m still in the midst of processing. Naturally I ran for the computer. The passage from the Mother was this: “You are already ‘in and out’ of the fulfillment of your ascension. “[What] is the final watermark? It is […]
Standing on the Mountain Top – Part 2/2
(Concluded from Part 1, above.) The vasana is a gigantic GRRRRR! to all the opposition I met along the way – opposition to doing what I’m happily doing right now. Why can’t we be allowed to do what we love and be financially supported? (Just wait for the Reval!) But then I realized that, without […]
Cognitive Dissonance Dispelled
This is a deep stretch of cognitive dissonance I’m going through and it bears looking at because many of us may find ourselves in a similar circumstance at some point. I’m knee-deep in editing a manual on restorative listening so perhaps I can also ask for your listening here to help me process and release […]
Riding the Horse in the Direction It’s Going
Most people define their careers in terms of what exists. And they fit into a possibly well-defined career description. My first career – history – had not been well defined the two subfields – cultural history and evolutionary history – that I chose to specialize in at the time (1968-73). But to go further I […]
More and More Still
As a lightworker and a spiritual seeker, I see the benefits of cleansing, purifying, removing obstacles, processing vasanas, deconstructing the constructed self, reparenting myself, etc. I know what’s “down there.” (1) And it’s innocent and pure, loving and blissful. I am in a sense uncovering it. Or one could look at the matter in an […]
Thank You to the Troll Under the Bridge … and Goodbye
I’ve reached the end of the road with an act of mine, a racket, a number. I’ve processed this number before. I’m processing it now at a much deeper level. Its presenting sign is that I wake up in the morning and I’m not cheerful. Nothing has happened that I be anything but cheerful, but […]
Not Elegant, Just Workable
I was saying earlier that I regarded this as a time of Deep Cleansing. (1) However that works, I personally find that deep issues are arising. I’m now following the deep despondency I’ve felt in the background of my consciousness for what feels like all my life. And at last I’m connecting with an utter […]
Really-Deep, Unresolved Issues Rising to the Surface
I’m going through intense emotional spaces these days. I think my space matches what I see depicted in the media. The public is getting excited and mobilized and I’m getting excited and mobilized along with it. The most difficult of the spaces that’s coming up for me has to be existential loneliness – loneliness independent […]
Completion is Rich Soil for Realization – Part 1/2
What began as a study of conditioning, the residue or leftovers of core issues or vasanas, has turned into a study of completion and realization. I’m OK letting things wander where they do. There seems to be a steady flow of inspiration. Where it’s coming from is anybody’s guess. Where it’s going to is a […]
Completion is Rich Soil for Realization – Part 2/2
(Concluded from Part 1.) I’d like to turn to realization now and suggest an analogy for it. Having an agreed-upon analogy allows us a common standard we can point to. The analogy I’d like to make is between what happens when we have a realization and what happens when we finish a jigsaw puzzle. Over […]
Completion vs. Enlightenment
I’ve just had a very interesting discussion with a reader who’s also feeling complete and wanted to know what it signified and what was next. I promised him I would say more in an article. Again I’m not a spiritual teacher or an enlightened person (something I have to keep saying over and over again) […]