Toward a World that Works for Everyone
When tension increases, awareness decreases. The converse should also be true: When tension decreases, (1) awareness should increase. And so, in the midst of chaos, my awareness appears to be increasing. Having dropped Constant Comment, weathered the eruption of Humiliation that followed, (pant, pant) I notice that I have reached a place of … well, […]
It seems that sometimes our experiences are more clearly understood with the passage of time. The clearing of my “humiliation thread” or vasana (core issue) was super-painful. But more about it is becoming available several days later. I now find that even the smallest infraction of the rules brings with it an experience of humiliation. […]
I’d like to draw attention to what Matthew Ward said recently: “Intensifying light during the aforementioned period offers an ideal opportunity to set positive intentions for personal growth. Go into your heart space—as God said, ‘The heart is the seat of the soul’—and if introspection shows residue of anxiety, self-doubt, judgments or discouragement, letting go […]
There’s something that was alive in the Sixties and Seventies and died in the Eighties, which I’d like to bring back to life. We called it “consciousness raising.” It was a dialogue around people’s issues – women, blacks, gays, etc. The idea behind it was that people lack information on which to make an informed […]
All this personal cleansing that I’m doing – and we’re doing – what’s its significance and how effective is it? The significance of personal cleansing is that it removes the various obstacles to realization (enlightenment). I’ve talked about the obstacles as vasanas (or core issues), habitual behavior patterns, and … I now see … the […]
I’d like to illustrate here the application of the upset clearing process to a really-tough vasana (or core issue). (1) I’m going to raise to awareness a feeling that’s difficult to experience. It’s so strong that it’s been roasting me alive for three days now. Constant Comment may be gone but my vasanas live! A […]
(Concluded from yesterday.) I decreed my oneness. I commanded that I be one from this moment onwards. And I did become one. And no sooner had I done that, then another, higher part of myself returned to me like a Slinkey reassembling itself. The one followed the other in rapid succession. These things never come […]
If you were the Humpty Dumpty man, had a great fall, and smashed into a million pieces, how would you put yourself back together again? What mantra/affirmation would you use? I am one? Sixty-six years after dissociating in that way, I’m nearing the point of becoming one again. (1) I never want to say the […]
Seeing a vasana (or core issue) disappear for a time is not the end of the road. Vasanas can reappear and re-establish themselves if we fall back into living life by following what have become habitual behavior patterns. Habitual behavior patterns are one form of residue, precipitate, the fallout from our vasanas. They linger even […]
It’s said that no plan survives the first ten minutes of war. When the Reval hits, I predict that there’ll be a war going on within ourselves that many of our plans will not survive. We’ll now find ourselves in the territory called “I don’t have to stand for that any more.” Entitlement may run […]
I continue to observe the changes within me. Concurrent with feeling happiness for virtually the first time in my life – within memory – the other day, I also notice that I’m wandering around without something. I was repositioning a picture and, having accomplished something, I found myself waiting for the spoilers to come along […]
Triggers just seem to keep going off. I have to be supervigilant not to launch into extreme thoughts and behavior. And not to then swing out onto the other extreme and super-protect myself from them, until the guardian again becomes the guard. (1) How to stay in the middle and yet be strong, resolute, determined? […]
There’s so much I want to say about the process I’ve just been through so things are not missed. The ideas are tumbling out. What I did was I processed a root vasana or core issue. Processing a vasana is the (wholesome) alternative to blaming and shouting at another person. Long ago I swore I […]
I was going through wave after wave of anger, experiencing it through to completion now that the vasana of father hatred was at last up. I resolved to be angry for as long as it took for the light to go on. And the light went on when I asked myself: What is the cost […]
Vesuvius is quietening down. Let me do a post-mortem. Father hatred leaves me flat, unresponsive, shallow in my compassion. Hindus call that state of mind thamasic, lethargic. In my everyday awareness, I can feel it only subtly, as a slightly negative attitude towards everything – not skeptical but pessimistic. Disbelief, despair, depression. As I said […]
