Toward a World that Works for Everyone
Here comes a detailed look at the constructed self that we fashion to present and manage our image, to look good and sound right. The invitation is to come out from behind the image and be who we really are. Download On the Constructed Self here: https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2022/11/On-the-Constructed-Self.pdf Introduction to the Constructed Self What is the […]
As long as we vibrate at a Third/Fourth-Dimensional level, we seem to follow a general strategy of seeking pleasure and avoiding pain. To achieve the maximum pleasure possible, we also seem to follow a number of tactics. They include being strong, looking good, and being right. Being strong is followed by people who believe that […]
For the first time in memory, I got angry this evening and, instead of hurling allegations at another, who after all “made me mad,” instead of festering with it, instead of revenging myself on the other person, I opened to the experience of it. It turned out to be a feeling just like any other. […]
If your personality was blown off you at an early age in violent circumstances, so that you thought of yourself as the Humpty Dumpty Man, what would be your greatest impulse? To bring all the pieces back together again. To consolidate. To integrate. To rebuild, reconstruct, reassemble. Isn’t that so? What an interesting circumstance for […]
Having committed to the divine qualities, as a way of anchoring myself in them, what next confronts me are the reaction patterns that vasanas (core issues, early childhood trauma) give rise to. Up till now, I’ve been mainly concerned with my vasanas, and not with the automatic reaction patterns they give rise to. Commitment does […]
I’m going about the serious business of making literature prior to the Reval putting an end to that activity from me (I’ll be too busy). Moreover the Reval will call for quite another persona. The job(s) I’ll be doing will be way different than this, although Michael wants me to keep writing. (1) And they […]
I read a passage from the Mother and it unleashed a vasana (or core issue) which I’m still in the midst of processing. Naturally I ran for the computer. The passage from the Mother was this: “You are already ‘in and out’ of the fulfillment of your ascension. “[What] is the final watermark? It is […]
(Concluded from Part 1, above.) The vasana is a gigantic GRRRRR! to all the opposition I met along the way – opposition to doing what I’m happily doing right now. Why can’t we be allowed to do what we love and be financially supported? (Just wait for the Reval!) But then I realized that, without […]
From a life of observation, as you know, I’ve reached the conclusion that how we feel is what’s most important to human beings. Everything seems to get channeled through the filter of “how do we feel about it?” We go to Hawaii and rent a room over Waikiki for that magic moment. What does that […]
The Mother said something at the beginning of the year that only becomes more relevant with the passage of time: “This sense that one is right, and one is wrong, that one is correct, and one is incorrect… I am bringing you, I am bringing this planet into the place of unity consciousness, into the […]
This morning I observed myself as I acted mechanically, below awareness, and aggressively. The situation was mundane. I’ve been allowing my waste paper pile to grow rather than shredding it as we go along. It’s reached sizable proportions and I’ve come to a shred-it-now-or-never point. I’m having a real but crazy argument with myself and […]
Seeing the script I have playing – and the discoveries that it’s leading to – is like an earthquake in my life. (1) And it’s led to numerous aftershocks. It’s opened the door for me to complete the cycle of domestic abuse that occurred in our household. It’s led to me see the identity I […]
Now that my parents’ two-handed card game of arrogance and depression is up to awareness, I’ve been observing how often it operates in me. The number of times I wince in a day is large and that wincing is me imitating my Mother’s reactions to my Dad. I hate the wincing. I feel like I’ve […]
I recently had a breakthrough in my cleansing process. Up till now I’d been processing singular vasanas (or core issues) as they erupted. (1) A few days back, something different presented itself. I felt awful and there was no reason that I could see why I might feel that way. So I began to observe. […]
I’ve been walking around triggering myself for a while now. And if I walk the trigger back, I find that I’m disappointed in myself (Mother). I’m disappointed because I reacted to some forgotten thought with irritation, anger, aggressiveness, or some negative attitude (Father). I have my Father and Mother endlessly arguing in my head. The […]
