Toward a World that Works for Everyone
I just got, from completing a huge vasana that traces back to events with my Mother, that, in the last analysis, no one else is responsible for and able to clean up the emotional damage I feel but me. Yes, I can get apologies. Anything external could happen. But no matter what happens externally – […]
I want to say at the beginning that I’m not talking about emotional pain, trauma, etc. That’s a different subject and a very difficult one. I recommend clearing emotional pain using the upset clearing process. (1) I’m talking about physical pain and I’m specifically relating to the pain in my knees from a newly-arisen case […]
As long as we vibrate at a Third/Fourth-Dimensional level, we seem to follow a general strategy of seeking pleasure and avoiding pain. To achieve the maximum pleasure possible, we also seem to follow a number of tactics. They include being strong, looking good, and being right. Being strong is followed by people who believe that […]
I’m gripped with a desire to get present with money in preparation for the Reval. And so I’ve taken all my money out of the bank, in $5 notes, and am doling it out to myself for computer supplies, household expenses, etc.; then keeping records. It isn’t that I need to do any of this. […]
If your personality was blown off you at an early age in violent circumstances, so that you thought of yourself as the Humpty Dumpty Man, what would be your greatest impulse? To bring all the pieces back together again. To consolidate. To integrate. To rebuild, reconstruct, reassemble. Isn’t that so? What an interesting circumstance for […]
Having committed to the divine qualities, as a way of anchoring myself in them, what next confronts me are the reaction patterns that vasanas (core issues, early childhood trauma) give rise to. Up till now, I’ve been mainly concerned with my vasanas, and not with the automatic reaction patterns they give rise to. Commitment does […]
I’m going about the serious business of making literature prior to the Reval putting an end to that activity from me (I’ll be too busy). Moreover the Reval will call for quite another persona. The job(s) I’ll be doing will be way different than this, although Michael wants me to keep writing. (1) And they […]
Here I am doing what I love. And here I am serving the Mother at the same time. (1) And here I am doing what Michael asked me to do (go up along with everyone else and write about it). I’m still amazed that doing what I love could also be serving the Mother and […]
I read a passage from the Mother and it unleashed a vasana (or core issue) which I’m still in the midst of processing. Naturally I ran for the computer. The passage from the Mother was this: “You are already ‘in and out’ of the fulfillment of your ascension. “[What] is the final watermark? It is […]
(Concluded from Part 1, above.) The vasana is a gigantic GRRRRR! to all the opposition I met along the way – opposition to doing what I’m happily doing right now. Why can’t we be allowed to do what we love and be financially supported? (Just wait for the Reval!) But then I realized that, without […]
This morning I observed myself as I acted mechanically, below awareness, and aggressively. The situation was mundane. I’ve been allowing my waste paper pile to grow rather than shredding it as we go along. It’s reached sizable proportions and I’ve come to a shred-it-now-or-never point. I’m having a real but crazy argument with myself and […]
Dr. Gabor Mate’s early-childhood-trauma team are multiplying the material available on the subject. I’d like to comment on their ground-breaking work. They ask us to support “the expanding movement to create a more trauma-informed world.” I’m happy to do so. In Part 2, I post his announcement of his Talks on Trauma Series, Part 2. […]
What I call vasanas, Dr. Gabor Mate calls early childhood trauma. Seeing the growing body of specialists he’s brought together over the years is heart-warming to someone who wants to see all our early childhood traumas lift. Here’s his announcement of new talks in his series and a reshowing of The Wisdom of Trauma. Talks […]
Since seeing the two-handed script of my Mom and Dad arguing, I’ve been watching my moods, my inner chatter. (1) I’m seeing that the impact on me of watching their heart-breaking conflict, day in and day out, or whenever I ventured out of my room, (2) was way beyond what I’ve seen so far. For […]
Seeing the script I have playing – and the discoveries that it’s leading to – is like an earthquake in my life. (1) And it’s led to numerous aftershocks. It’s opened the door for me to complete the cycle of domestic abuse that occurred in our household. It’s led to me see the identity I […]
