Toward a World that Works for Everyone
“You know … it could be so easy with all that is going on to just become a recluse. Many feel this way and unless things change … the great ‘unpricked’ cannot go anywhere in public anyway, so reclusive lifestyle is suiting many. Just keeping themselves to themselves.” (1) I just realized this morning that […]
I read a passage from the Mother and it unleashed a vasana (or core issue) which I’m still in the midst of processing. Naturally I ran for the computer. The passage from the Mother was this: “You are already ‘in and out’ of the fulfillment of your ascension. “[What] is the final watermark? It is […]
(Concluded from Part 1, above.) The vasana is a gigantic GRRRRR! to all the opposition I met along the way – opposition to doing what I’m happily doing right now. Why can’t we be allowed to do what we love and be financially supported? (Just wait for the Reval!) But then I realized that, without […]
Most people define their careers in terms of what exists. And they fit into a possibly well-defined career description. My first career – history – had not been well defined the two subfields – cultural history and evolutionary history – that I chose to specialize in at the time (1968-73). But to go further I […]
The music is Dream of the Brave, by esoundtrax at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=onmJtJevGRA Think about it for a moment. How many holders of currency do you know who can be described as rich? And yet they will be. The meek are about to inherit the Earth. And when they do, it could be heady stuff. The feelings […]
Whenever I feel guilt or shame or dismay, I can say with certainty that my Wounded Child is in the driver’s seat. I can say this with certainty because of what I saw and felt in a meditation I did at Xenia Retreat Center on Sept. 18, 2018. I saw the Self in the depths […]
The electricity is still off. Evidently a transformer is down. The thought of climbing up twelve flights of stairs has me decide to remain here in the darkness. I’ve resolved to use this time to complete the experience of the fear of being wrong. If I put a dent in fear itself in the process, […]
Most people would encounter the lessons I’m learning over a gradual period of growing up. The process would be called “maturing.” But, because of dissociation at an early age due to domestic violence, I “matured” only slowly and incompletely. Like many others, I built a constructed self around my disabilities. Scrapper, activist, etc. The only […]
Eric Berne’s ego states are particularly helpful in looking at the operation I’m doing on myself. What Berne meant by “ego state,” I think, would be the same as what we mean by “states of consciousness.” “Ego’” here just means “I.” If I can adapt his terms, I grew up with a bad-parent ego state […]
I can see that I’m on a journey of recovery, as are so many of us. The lessons of the journey seem to be cumulative. The experience of gentleness recently opened a new door of experience for me but it was also the latest in many lessons over time that were showing me the tremendous […]
Best wishes on Easter Sunday! I just saw a demonstration of will that I can’t pass by commenting on because I personally am going to need to be the undeniable driver of my will in (I hope) a short time. It began when some painful feelings flitted across my mind. I noticed them. I resolved […]
You know that I’m very much taken right now with the exercise of the will. One day when I was around seven or eight, my Dad shouted at me from inches away. I shattered into a thousand pieces and only came back together again (the Humpty Dumpty Man) at age 58. So my will has […]
The next day I was still exploring determination in my journal … when suddenly the penny dropped. We pick up the thread. I’m not talking about a goosestepping, maniacal, ego-driven determination to command others, etc. I’m talking about the resuscitation of our ability to stand on our own word, on our own two feet, and […]
By age 57 I’d become one again. But this one was leaning against a wall, playing cards with the boys, shooting the breeze. It lacked a leader. There was no one driving the car. Now I pick up the story as of yesterday. While the subject of determination had been buzzing around in the background […]
I’ve just been through an incredible healing, which doesn’t surprise me. My life seems to have speeded up incredibly. It’s as if I get one piece of my own puzzle every day and each piece leads to more growth. I’m going to walk you through the healing scenario, but first I need you to know […]
