I’ve just become aware of the most subtle feeling, one that permeates my entire experience and holds me back on all matters of initiation and self-presentation. It blankets me. I’m feeling into it at this moment, treating it as a vasana (or core issue). (1) It has a shade of sorrow. —-> [A flash of […]
Danna Beal: Happy New Year – Lessons I Learned from Bob Beale!
https://tinyurl.com/yc48pwul My dear friend of thirty years, Bob Beale, died a few days ago. Some of you knew him as one of the early ACIM supporters, some of you knew of him as an amazing business consultant and author, and many of my close friends knew of him from me–because I spoke so often of […]
The Worst Possible Virus: The Inner Hitler
When tension increases, awareness decreases. The converse should also be true: When tension decreases, (1) awareness should increase. And so, in the midst of chaos, my awareness appears to be increasing. Having dropped Constant Comment, weathered the eruption of Humiliation that followed, (pant, pant) I notice that I have reached a place of … well, […]
Matt Kahn : Self Love is the Ability to Be Good to Yourself
(email) Self-love is the ability to be good to yourself, no matter who is or isn’t good to you. As your self-worth elevates by treating your heart to the friendship, support, honor, and validation you deserve, you become less resonant with those who say one thing and do another, make promises only to break them […]
Now What? Now Here
Writers Corner From Gigi Goddess says… Now what??? You keep asking what now?!?? and what’s next?!? Still searching for more, feeling like you have reached somewhere, but at the same time feeling like you have reached nowhere….. And in that very moment of realizing that you have reached nowhere you start to see that you […]
Life is Less a Courtroom and More a Gymnasium
I’m seeing that a happy life requires us to eliminate our patterns that don’t work and refuse from then on to harm ourselves or other people. As we peel back the layers of the onion, we uncover our basic happiness and innocence, always there but hidden. That’s why the love in our hearts is so […]
When is the Wounded Child in the Driver’s Seat?
Whenever I feel guilt or shame or dismay, I can say with certainty that my Wounded Child is in the driver’s seat. I can say this with certainty because of what I saw and felt in a meditation I did at Xenia Retreat Center on Sept. 18, 2018. I saw the Self in the depths […]
Layer Upon Layer of Constructed Self
A friend called me the other day on not acting very compassionately. And she was right. There is a side of me that’s superficial, uncaring, unconcerned. I’m incredibly shallow about the world and I actually don’t know what to do about it. Seeing how shallow I am brings up fresh, new levels of constructed self […]
The Driver of a Team of Stallions
In the course of reparenting myself, I’ve now reached the point of imagining myself as having three sides (that I want to work with). I think of them as a triumvirate. The first is Big Steve, my Adult consciousness. The second is Little Steve, my natural, pure, and innocent Child consciousness. And the third is […]
Layers of the Onion
I’m learning so much from exploring this commanding attitude of taking charge. A few months ago, will reasserted itself in the Humpty Dumpty Man. Now he’s taking charge. I see this as part of a radical reconstruction of my self. The prostate surgery had something to do with it as well, AAM told me. Watching […]