Toward a World that Works for Everyone
When I was dissociated, from age 7 to 58, I was … how can I describe it? … hardly a person. Or maybe barely a person is more accurate. I barely held it together. I barely passed. I’d metaphorically catch my breath, panting, after a social engagement because I was so self-conscious and working so […]
I was sharing in Kathleen’s meditation group the other night that I’ve been “processing” (read: beating up on) my Dad for the past ten years and I still feel resentful and vengeful. Every History or Sociology class I taught reified into my Father. Every villain I ever fought became my Father. I’ve grown up fighting […]
I use my awareness to uncover the truth. Uncovering the truth in turn elevates my awareness. I’ve worked my way through ever subtler layers of egoic personality. My awareness now falls on individual words I’m using, which, I’m finding, are subtly self-serving. I go through life living events, but then constructing a self-serving story or […]
Your email saying when I talk about myself, it’s either the same for you or backlights how you are is encouraging to me. Thank you for that. Sometimes, it really is like going out on the skinny branches. Exhilarating but risky. So I do need encouragement. In the growth movement, what I’m saying to you […]
I just came across this passage from a 2012 reading, two days after writing this article, which rang such a bell for me in light of what’s discussed here: “Another measure, my beloved ones, is to do with your mental acuity, including interest in things of the mental body – and, dear Steve, you have […]
Here I am doing what I love. And here I am serving the Mother at the same time. (1) And here I am doing what Michael asked me to do (go up along with everyone else and write about it). I’m still amazed that doing what I love could also be serving the Mother and […]
Since seeing the two-handed script of my Mom and Dad arguing, I’ve been watching my moods, my inner chatter. (1) I’m seeing that the impact on me of watching their heart-breaking conflict, day in and day out, or whenever I ventured out of my room, (2) was way beyond what I’ve seen so far. For […]
Seeing the script I have playing – and the discoveries that it’s leading to – is like an earthquake in my life. (1) And it’s led to numerous aftershocks. It’s opened the door for me to complete the cycle of domestic abuse that occurred in our household. It’s led me to see the identity I […]
Time to return to preparation for Ascension. As an Ascension ethnographer, I’m only writing partly for our own culture and civilization. Many civilizations all over our universe are probably also ascending, perhaps even as we speak. Michael has mentioned other Ascensions in discussing my next assignment: Steve: When will I … have my original dimensionality […]
As the chaos swirls outside, the chaos swirls inside as well. In this article I process a residual feeling state. Doing this, I hope, allows me to do a better job in post-Reval roles. And of course every one I can dissolve frees me and elevates my space, which is a contribution to Ascension. It’s […]
I’ve been walking around triggering myself for a while now. And if I walk the trigger back, I find that I’m disappointed in myself (Mother). I’m disappointed because I reacted to some forgotten thought with irritation, anger, aggressiveness, or some negative attitude (Father). I have my Father and Mother endlessly arguing in my head. The […]
There’s no doubt that I’m using this “quiet” time for introspection and purification. When it’s as quiet as this, I can observe myself and notice my thoughts, and all the crossed connections and potential short circuits. So I’m not just having the thoughts, but watching myself having them. (This is the awareness path.) I noticed […]
March 19, 2021 Fierce-throated beauty! Roll through my chant with all thy lawless music, thy swinging lamps at night, Thy madly-whistled laughter… Thy trills of shrieks by rocks and hills return’d, Launch’d o’er the prairies wide, across the lakes, To the free skies unpent and glad and strong. ~Walt Whitman, To a Locomotive in Winter […]
Before thinking about bringing peace to the world, we may need to bring peace to ourselves. This article is part of that process for me. I notice I’m not creating as much residue, as much debris in my wake as I used to. I’m still dropping a royal clanger every now and then, but not […]
I’ve reached the end of the road with an act of mine, a racket, a number. I’ve processed this number before. I’m processing it now at a much deeper level. Its presenting sign is that I wake up in the morning and I’m not cheerful. Nothing has happened that I be anything but cheerful, but […]
