A Lifetime’s Humiliation Coming Up
I’d like to illustrate here the application of the upset clearing process to a really-tough vasana (or core issue). (1) I’m going to raise to awareness a feeling that’s difficult to experience. It’s so strong that it’s been roasting me alive for three days now. Constant Comment may be gone but my vasanas live! A […]
The Next Step for Me
I seem to be in a process of emergence. As I move forward in it, I bump into major roadblocks again and again. I’m bumping into one now. I’m not surprised that it’s come up. The minute one takes a position, up comes the opposition. I’ve taken a position, “no more global small talk – […]
Getting Out of My Own Way
My life is a workshop in awareness. My agreement is to remain aware of myself. My process involves observing, noticing, and sharing. Viewed from a cultural-historical standpoint, my notes are an Ascension ethnography – a biography or narrative of one person’s slow and gradual, and sometimes sudden, Ascension process. Right now, I’m noticing the impact […]
Not Elegant, Just Workable
Happy Canada Day, everyone! Yayayayayayay 2020! I was saying earlier that I regarded this as a time of Deep Cleansing. (1) However that works, I personally find that deep issues are arising. I’m now following the deep despondency I’ve felt in the background of my consciousness for what feels like all my life. And at […]
Resolving the Dissonance: Finding Love for the Service-to-Self Polarized
On April 17th, 2020, Magenta Pixie posted a video outlining 3 steps necessary to release ourselves from the dark agenda as we move into unity consciousness 1) Learn about, and acknowledge, the abuses that have taken place and integrate the visceral and emotional reactions that will likely manifest. 2) Reclaim our rightful place as universal […]
Anael: Directing Your Love and Healing Energy to Help People
Anael has given me permission to post her share from Suzi’s Forum. (https://goldenageofgaia.com/forums-home/.) In it she’s sharing or revealing herself, which is a freeing thing to do. (The truth will set you free.) This is exactly what I was hoping would happen on the Forum. I have an idea to propose to you for directing […]
What’s Behind Making Myself Right and Others Wrong?
Pre-scheduled I’m trying to get to the bottom of the Third-Dimensional practice of making ourselves right and others wrong. From my own experience, this practice is transcended when we find ourselves in the higher-dimensional love characteristic of the Fifth Dimension and higher. In the Third Dimension, our vibrations are too dense to bring that kind […]
Archaeological Dig into Strong Desire
I have (and I wonder if we have as well) many urgent needs, strong desires that I serve endlessly – and without question. An example would be a strong desire for affirmation that’s authentic and not manipulative. I was criticized as a child at the very time when a son wants a father to be […]
The Driver of a Team of Stallions
In the course of reparenting myself, I’ve now reached the point of imagining myself as having three sides (that I want to work with). I think of them as a triumvirate. The first is Big Steve, my Adult consciousness. The second is Little Steve, my natural, pure, and innocent Child consciousness. And the third is […]
Validating Oneself
I wrote an article the other day and was very pleased with myself. I found myself saying, “Yay, Steve,” and then I mysteriously broke down in tears. I realized at that moment that I’d been starved of validation from my Father as a young child and instead fed a diet of invalidation. The classic criticism […]
There is No Original Sin; Only Original Innocence
What is it that has people crave to feel important? Or special? Michael once said that we’d feel elevated after the Reval. He hoped we’d take the elevator to the basement. I see it in myself. When I look at myself, I see a child who was made to feel of little worth and much […]
Transcending the Invalidation Monster
I felt wretched today – all my friends are away at the moment. I felt lonely, sad, forlorn. Then I wrote a stimulating article and found myself at the end of it saying “Yes!” I immediately saw that what was present in the situation as it existed at the moment was unconscious invalidation (Happy? “Not […]