Here I am doing what I love. And here I am serving the Mother at the same time. (1) And here I am doing what Michael asked me to do (go up along with everyone else and write about it). I’m still amazed that doing what I love could also be serving the Mother and […]
Standing on the Mountain Top – Part 1/2
I read a passage from the Mother and it unleashed a vasana (or core issue) which I’m still in the midst of processing. Naturally I ran for the computer. The passage from the Mother was this: “You are already ‘in and out’ of the fulfillment of your ascension. “[What] is the final watermark? It is […]
Standing on the Mountain Top – Part 2/2
(Concluded from Part 1, above.) The vasana is a gigantic GRRRRR! to all the opposition I met along the way – opposition to doing what I’m happily doing right now. Why can’t we be allowed to do what we love and be financially supported? (Just wait for the Reval!) But then I realized that, without […]
From God We Came; To God We Return
Time to return to preparation for Ascension. As an Ascension ethnographer, I’m only writing partly for our own culture and civilization. Many civilizations all over our universe are probably also ascending, perhaps even as we speak. Michael has mentioned other Ascensions in discussing my next assignment: Steve: When will I … have my original dimensionality […]
Insight Unfolds
This insight keeps on unfolding. I’m trying to remake the world in my own image. (1) Yes. I have preferences. I try to see that the world is as I’d prefer it to be. Definitely. I certainly need to raise this one to awareness because very soon I’ll have ample money to impact a section […]
The Worst Possible Virus: The Inner Hitler
When tension increases, awareness decreases. The converse should also be true: When tension decreases, (1) awareness should increase. And so, in the midst of chaos, my awareness appears to be increasing. Having dropped Constant Comment, weathered the eruption of Humiliation that followed, (pant, pant) I notice that I have reached a place of … well, […]
Whose Shepherd I am
So far the vasana with my Dad has manifested, as it did in 1986, as unbridled anger. But I seem to have left the anger phase now, and, even as the last fumes of father hatred dissipate, I’m beset by feelings of fear. This is a crystal-clear demonstration that anger sits on top of fear. […]
Really-Deep, Unresolved Issues Rising to the Surface
I’m going through intense emotional spaces these days. I think my space matches what I see depicted in the media. The public is getting excited and mobilized and I’m getting excited and mobilized along with it. The most difficult of the spaces that’s coming up for me has to be existential loneliness – loneliness independent […]
Body Ritual Among the Nacirema
In a search for an article by Michael I came across an old friend. (1) This one by Horace Miner was very influential on me in my university years, matched only by the books and articles of Erving Goffman and Eric Berne. It threw things into such stark relief that I never forgot it. It […]
Resolving the Dissonance: Finding Love for the Service-to-Self Polarized
On April 17th, 2020, Magenta Pixie posted a video outlining 3 steps necessary to release ourselves from the dark agenda as we move into unity consciousness 1) Learn about, and acknowledge, the abuses that have taken place and integrate the visceral and emotional reactions that will likely manifest. 2) Reclaim our rightful place as universal […]
Our Future and Our Destiny: Are We There Yet?
Time for something completely different. It took me years and years to realize that what was making me mad was not the person standing in front of me but a person who stood in front of me decades and decades ago. On that occasion years ago I reached a conclusion about life and a decision […]
Emerging from the Shell
I was talking to a colleague when someone planted the idea in my mind – out of nowhere – that it’s all about emergence. For us it’s all about coming out of our shells. What is “it”? Growth. Enlightenment. Ultimately Ascension. We’ve been conditioned by a hundred forces all our lives. It’s time to come […]
Living Up to a Higher Standard
I was deeply moved by watching Martin Luther King deliver his 1963 “I Have a Dream” speech. I found myself immersed in inner work in response to it – in between my tears from being moved. Aided by the buoyancy I felt from listening, at that moment, the penny dropped for me on what Archangel […]
A Balanced, Truthful, and Realistic Positivity
Returning to our exploration of positivity, I’m starting to see whole areas that I’ve walled myself off from through having taken a dim view of positivity. These I can now open to. Nonethelesss I still do value authenticity, truthfulness, and transparency. I’m still on guard against being snowed. How do I reconcile the two? Let […]
No Earthly Master
I just realized that I serve no earthly master. I serve my heavenly master, Archangel Michael, and, behind him, the Source of All, the Divine Mother/Father God. But I mean I realized it. Not just experienced it or had a good thought about it. I just want to sit with that. I want to get […]