Time for something completely different.
It took me years and years to realize that what was making me mad was not the person standing in front of me but a person who stood in front of me decades and decades ago.
On that occasion years ago I reached a conclusion about life and a decision on how I would act in the future. This is how a vasana or core issue gets started.
It’s taken me more years to realize that how we feel is the most important motivator in our lives. And more to realize that I have the power to change how I feel.
I’m not a victim of my feelings. Granted a thought may have generated the feeling, I don’t have to remain depressed, dejected, disappointed, unless I want to. And I seldom want to.
It doesn’t work to plaster a smile over a feeling. But, given that many feelings and moods change with things I do anyways, I can choose to do things that will alter my feelings.
Those they don’t alter, I can process using the upset clearing process. (1)
It was accepted practice in the Growth Movement to stay with our feelings. But where I’ll be going (and many others will as well), I won’t have the time or luxury of going the long way around. I have to find another way forward.
If I feel dejected, I often choose to act in ways that are consistent with it. The same with many, not all, feelings. But I’ve been experimenting lately with ways of changing the way I feel. Listening to inspiring music is one; creating a new writing project is another; thinking of someone I love is a third.
Once the feeling changes, I marvel at what I was thinking of doing (or had done) by acting on that feeling.
These are only stop-gap measures. Once we shift, based on my visits to these realms, we’ll be in love and bliss 24/7. Thus it’s not a pipe dream to say we want to live in love permanently and fully. It’s our future and our destiny.
Knowing this, does it not make sense that I’d be impatient to get there and trying every means to achieve that space? Once we would have said that I was denying reality and burying my head in the sand.
But is it denying reality to say that I want to be at our destination as soon as I can? Have we not been saying that since childhood? (Are we there yet?)
The love and bliss I’m talking about, as you know, is a world apart from what we think of as love and bliss. It’d be like Mom telling me orange Kool-Aid is freshly-squeezed orange juice. Not.
What awaits us is definitely more than 99.99% of the population may or will have experienced. OK, 99.98%. To say it’s “out of this world” is an understatement. It’s all this world desires.
Maybe knowing this is what has me no longer settle for feeling dejected or depressed. Whether it be that I listen to these feelings until they lift or change the tune, I want more of what I know is coming. I want the Light at the end of the tunnel. (2)
Are we there yet?
(1) “How to Handle Unwanted Feelings: The Upset Clearing Process,” December 29, 2018, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/12/29/how-to-handle-unwanted-feelings-the-upset-clearing-process-2/
(2) The Light of the Self in the seat of the soul, the end of the tunnel of the heart.