Toward a World that Works for Everyone
When tension increases, awareness decreases. The converse should also be true: When tension decreases, (1) awareness should increase. And so, in the midst of chaos, my awareness appears to be increasing. Having dropped Constant Comment, weathered the eruption of Humiliation that followed, (pant, pant) I notice that I have reached a place of … well, […]
It seems that sometimes our experiences are more clearly understood with the passage of time. The clearing of my “humiliation thread” or vasana (core issue) was super-painful. But more about it is becoming available several days later. I now find that even the smallest infraction of the rules brings with it an experience of humiliation. […]
I’d like to draw attention to what Matthew Ward said recently: “Intensifying light during the aforementioned period offers an ideal opportunity to set positive intentions for personal growth. Go into your heart space—as God said, ‘The heart is the seat of the soul’—and if introspection shows residue of anxiety, self-doubt, judgments or discouragement, letting go […]
I’d like to illustrate here the application of the upset clearing process to a really-tough vasana (or core issue). (1) I’m going to raise to awareness a feeling that’s difficult to experience. It’s so strong that it’s been roasting me alive for three days now. Constant Comment may be gone but my vasanas live! A […]
Seeing a vasana (or core issue) disappear for a time is not the end of the road. Vasanas can reappear and re-establish themselves if we fall back into living life by following what have become habitual behavior patterns. Habitual behavior patterns are one form of residue, precipitate, the fallout from our vasanas. They linger even […]
It’s said that no plan survives the first ten minutes of war. When the Reval hits, I predict that there’ll be a war going on within ourselves that many of our plans will not survive. We’ll now find ourselves in the territory called “I don’t have to stand for that any more.” Entitlement may run […]
I continue to observe the changes within me. Concurrent with feeling happiness for virtually the first time in my life – within memory – the other day, I also notice that I’m wandering around without something. I was repositioning a picture and, having accomplished something, I found myself waiting for the spoilers to come along […]
Triggers just seem to keep going off. I have to be supervigilant not to launch into extreme thoughts and behavior. And not to then swing out onto the other extreme and super-protect myself from them, until the guardian again becomes the guard. (1) How to stay in the middle and yet be strong, resolute, determined? […]
I was going through wave after wave of anger, experiencing it through to completion now that the vasana of father hatred was at last up. I resolved to be angry for as long as it took for the light to go on. And the light went on when I asked myself: What is the cost […]
Vesuvius is quietening down. Let me do a post-mortem. Father hatred leaves me flat, unresponsive, shallow in my compassion. Hindus call that state of mind thamasic, lethargic. In my everyday awareness, I can feel it only subtly, as a slightly negative attitude towards everything – not skeptical but pessimistic. Disbelief, despair, depression. As I said […]
So far the vasana with my Dad has manifested, as it did in 1986, as unbridled anger. But I seem to have left the anger phase now, and, even as the last fumes of father hatred dissipate, I’m beset by feelings of fear. This is a crystal-clear demonstration that anger sits on top of fear. […]
I had no success accessing this vasana. (1) It’s the same root vasana of father hatred that I’ve been dealing with since I was a young child. It shows how tenacious a vasana can be. I finally invoked universal law and asked Archangel Michael and the Divine Mother to take the whole of it away, […]
I seem to be in a process of emergence. As I move forward in it, I bump into major roadblocks again and again. I’m bumping into one now. I’m not surprised that it’s come up. The minute one takes a position, up comes the opposition. I’ve taken a position, “no more global small talk – […]
Are You Tired Of Being Angry At The State Of The World? Joe Martino, Collective Evolution, July 21, 2020 (https://www.collective-evolution.com/2020/07/21/are-you-tired-of-being-angry-at-the-state-of-the-world/) There’s no secret: truths about corruption involving high profile government officials, politicians, high profile people, and agencies is coming to the surface like crazy right now. It’s in humanity’s awareness more so than ever before. […]
Again, doing research on an entirely-different topic, I came across this 2017 conversation with Michael where he discusses the human tendency not to fully trust the Mother and the celestials. I can speak to the fear he points to here. Living almost entirely on donations can make one’s teeth chatter. Unless one has been told […]
