Toward a World that Works for Everyone
I’ve traced this lack of compassion that I feel back to the crib. My arms were tied to the sides of the crib to stop me from scratching as a result of having excema. I was wheeled into the kitchen and left there all night no matter how much I cried. (1) I concluded that […]
In the course of reparenting myself, I’ve now reached the point of imagining myself as having three sides (that I want to work with). I think of them as a triumvirate. The first is Big Steve, my Adult consciousness. The second is Little Steve, my natural, pure, and innocent Child consciousness. And the third is […]
Most people would encounter the lessons I’m learning over a gradual period of growing up. The process would be called “maturing.” But, because of dissociation at an early age due to domestic violence, I “matured” only slowly and incompletely. Like many others, I built a constructed self around my disabilities. Scrapper, activist, etc. The only […]
As I reparent myself and make my transition from sad … and mad … to glad, my sensitivity to my feelings increases. I become more aware of feelings that would have just been my “normal” back then. I was one compacted, compounded person. At the same time, I’ve been looking through the scrapbook Dad prepared […]
This transition that I’m going through continues. It’s like a snowball – decades of slow work on vasanas and now gathering speed. I spent nearly six decades healing dissociation. Now I’m using a dissociative fantasy to provide leadership to myself, to assume command over myself. I’m imagining that “I” am an older brother (Big Steve) […]
I notice that many discussions today have to do with being uplifted by the energies prior to Ascension, but I don’t see as many discussions about the way I’m feeling. I have a sense of a very slow process occurring within myself. I’ve called it on previous occasions “emergence,” but I now feel it more […]
