There are degrees of freedom. At one end of the spectrum, there’s physical freedom, where all my limbs and organs are working and I can live without worrying very much about them. That’s a basic-level freedom.
All the way at the other end of the spectrum, there’s ultimate freedom. We climb Jacob’s Ladder of consciousness all the way back to the One. Reunion with the One – in which God meets God – is the ultimate freedom.
And there is a wide range of freedoms between the two.
The freedom I choose to look at, the one I’d like to work on, is freedom from fear.
I think that has to be the head vampire of all other personal bondages.
There would be no fear if I realized myself. And of course, that Self – my Self, your Self – is God.
But because I’m not aware of this highest spiritual truth – and haven’t realized it – I feel separate from God, abandoned and left here in this cruel world, etc. etc.
How am I to survive? What will I do? And so I feel afraid.
Just imagine the characters in a 1920s silent movie, showing exaggerated fear on their faces.
You’d think I’d have a fear for my own survival, but in fact I don’t. A journey outside the body in 1977 showed me that I was not my body and the fear of death instantly evaporated.
I’m quite happy to go back where I came from. And then get 200 years off! (1)
I’m looking at my fear right now. It doesn’t make sense to me that I’d have lost my fear of death and yet still have survival fears.
Bulletin! This just in! My mind being an open space for the moment, what arose (inspiration) was that the fear that is basic to me is a fear of being wrong and what that looks like for me is this.
If I’m right, Dad will not shout at me. If I’m wrong, Dad will shout at me. I never want to lose my personality again through his blasting me (2) so I will do all I can to be right and avoid being wrong.
I fear being wrong. I fear being blown apart by my Dad’s anger. I fear being dissociated, separated from all the normal feelings people have.
Wow, the truth will set you free! The fear has just dropped away.
It was never a fear of bodily survival. It was always a fear of personality survival.
I feel able to leave that scenario behind now, having seen what drives it. All the work I’ve done since 1975 when I went to Cold Mountain (2) has led here.
Footnotes
(1) Archangel Michael: When you complete this mission, you are allowed to have 200 years off. But what you do with that is up to you, dear one! You will certainly have full access to your interdimensionality.
SB: So no matter what I choose, I’ll have access to it?
AAM: Yes.
SB: Okay. Well, apart from that, it really just depends on what’s wanted and needed. (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Dec. 18, 2012.)
Before we do this again on the Seventh Dimension.
Steve: The next assignment is in the Seventh Dimension?
Archangel Michael: You will have a choice of planetary systems. This is just the warm-up for [that] Ascension. It is to bring a further rising of vibrations to those throughout the Universe. (Archangel Michael, ibid., Sept. 13, 2011.)
(2) When I was seven, my Dad yelled at me from mere inches from my face. My personality was blown right off me. It took fifty years to realize what had happened and put Humpty together again.
(3) I did a three-month resident fellowship at Cold Mountain Institute in 1975-76. It was a series of week-long workshops tied together by a three-month encounter group. It kicked off the work I did to address dissociation – not like I knew at that time that I was dissociated.