We certainly should have mastered the wait by now. What we may have trouble with is the start after, or even during, the wait. It may be hard to get going again. Lethargy may have set in. The growth movement had quite a few tools to get us going, nurture our self-responsibility, etc. What I’d […]
How Freeing It Is
There’s no doubt that I’m using this “quiet” time for introspection and purification. When it’s as quiet as this, I can observe myself and notice my thoughts, and all the crossed connections and potential short circuits. So I’m not just having the thoughts, but watching myself having them. (This is the awareness path.) I noticed […]
Message in a Bottle: In the Event that My Worldview Collapses….
Part One. I have a conference call in a short while and I asked myself: “How do you feel?” And the answer that came back surprised me: “I feel insecure.” Not “unsafe.” I don’t feel unsafe on any level. Michael has my back, front, and sides. But insecure. The distinction I make between them is […]
Everything Hid Shall be Known
I’ve said this is a rich time for the student of awareness. Creative chaos shakes everything up and makes change possible. There’s a saying from Jesus in this regard. He stated that “there is nothing covered that shall not be revealed, and hid, that shall not be known.” I think this is the time he […]
Escape from Adulthood: OK, That’s Enough of That
Clearly my personality survives intact in some way, shape or form. I don’t know what the road ahead holds. I can only report. What I report now arises from my practice, on the path of awareness, of maintaining awareness of myself. I detected a pattern. I was people-pleasing. I was complimenting someone on a coat […]
Put a Human Face on a Human Face and Whaddya Get?
Put a Human Face on a Human Face and We Get … Put a human face on a human face and whaddya get? Love. Whazzat? So many people put a mask on a human face and whaddya get? Pretence, insincerity, complication, failure, dissatisfaction. People put on a mask to get what they want. It’s peculiarly […]
And Then, Another Bridge
I’m finding there comes a time when a bridge is crossed. It’s one of many bridges, one of them being Ascension itself. (1) And, like so much else, for the experience to flower, I have to consciously recognize what’s happening. I have to move from unconscious awareness of the thing in question to conscious awareness. […]
The Worst Possible Virus: The Inner Hitler
When tension increases, awareness decreases. The converse should also be true: When tension decreases, (1) awareness should increase. And so, in the midst of chaos, my awareness appears to be increasing. Having dropped Constant Comment, weathered the eruption of Humiliation that followed, (pant, pant) I notice that I have reached a place of … well, […]
The Work Feelings like Humiliation Do
It seems that sometimes our experiences are more clearly understood with the passage of time. The clearing of my “humiliation thread” or vasana (core issue) was super-painful. But more about it is becoming available several days later. I now find that even the smallest infraction of the rules brings with it an experience of humiliation. […]
A Time of Purification?
Triggers just seem to keep going off. I have to be supervigilant not to launch into extreme thoughts and behavior. And not to then swing out onto the other extreme and super-protect myself from them, until the guardian again becomes the guard. (1) How to stay in the middle and yet be strong, resolute, determined? […]
Are We the Best Judge of Our Own Failings?
Are we the best judge of our own failings? I don’t want to choose a particular “failing” because I’d immediately open the door to a passionate, perhaps angry debate. And the debates tend to skyrocket easily. Before long we’ve gone nuclear and we’re lobbing memes at each other. That isn’t what I want. You’re welcome […]
What is “Sharing” for Me?
I created a subgroup in the Forum on “Sharing.” (1) Why did I do that? What is the draw in “sharing” for me? I’ll tell you but please keep in mind that I’m aware, as a Sociology grad student of small groups, that it doesn’t work to force a vision on a group. I’m simply […]
Emerging from the Shell
I was talking to a colleague when someone planted the idea in my mind – out of nowhere – that it’s all about emergence. For us it’s all about coming out of our shells. What is “it”? Growth. Enlightenment. Ultimately Ascension. We’ve been conditioned by a hundred forces all our lives. It’s time to come […]
Understanding the Constructed Self
Please accept a combined Christmas and New Years gift from us to you – a new book on the constructed self. What’s the importance of knowing about the constructed self? The constructed self is the view of ourselves – also called a mask, act, or self-image – we try to sell to others. When we […]
My Life is Mine to Create – Part 2/2 (2017)
(Concluded from Part 1, above.) Written in the midst of a spiritual experience Meanwhile, everything we do together as a collective is a carefully-scripted drama, in which we have the right to depart from our agreed-upon lines. Well, now that I’m free of thinking that what I do or do not do matters, the question […]