We certainly should have mastered the wait by now.
What we may have trouble with is the start after, or even during, the wait.
It may be hard to get going again. Lethargy may have set in.
The growth movement had quite a few tools to get us going, nurture our self-responsibility, etc.
What I’d like to look at here is one I’ve mentioned from time to time: Pushing our edge.
Pushing our edge invites us to go further in our self-awareness and self-exposure than we have before. It invites us to take the next step, to drop some of the secrets we’ve been carrying around for years, which have shaped our personality.
It invites us to look at our story and share what parts of it are not true, exaggerated, slanted.
I’ve talked earlier about how many of us create a self-serving story – I certainly know I do. (1) Pushing our edge invites us to “own” that we do and share anything more that we want to about that.
In our communications, especially on any that touch on ourselves, we seem to walk up to an edge of sharing and go no further.
“Yes, I lost a lot of money but that’s all I want to say about that.” “I was beat up pretty badly but we don’t need to talk about that, do we?” And so on.
Us going so far and no farther means that we retain the tension in our body that hiding something and keeping secrets involve. Which means that we put a crystal ceiling on how far and how high our awareness can go. In effect we anchor ourselves to a lower state of consciousness. Pushing our edge means we go further in our sharing than we have so far, take a risk, drop some baggage.
And of course none of what I say is appropriate in wartime. Situational awareness, not self-revelation, is critical there.
In peacetime, there are various types of secrets – half-secrets, confidential matters, trade secrets, deep dark secrets, etc. All secrets share in common the placing of a bookmark in the matter and the reservation of some energy devoted to seeing that we don’t make any of the same “mistakes” twice.
When we near those places of tension, our behavior reflects it. We withdraw our gaze, resist pursuing the topic further, switch from being present to thinking, start strategizing, etc.
My own goal is transparency but I also recognize that I can’t drag others there, along with me; I can’t betray matters that friends and family would rather were kept in confidence.
I may – probably, will – come into possession of confidential matters by way of my post-Reval work. There are all kinds of grown-up reasons why 100% transparency is not yet possible for some lightworkers. Their lightwork may in fact be intimately tied to keeping secrets. Those working with our star family are probably among them.
The subject is interesting for me personally because my family swore me to secrecy about our domestic violence (“don’t talk about the family secrets”). All my life I’ve resisted being a secret keeper, but now I’ll probably have to be.
Loss, injury, and lives could some day depend on it. Total transparency doesn’t seem possible or perhaps even desirable yet. (2) All of us are working to build a world in which transparency is valued and practiced. That goal seems a little bit out ahead of us still.
(1) See “What Lies on the Other Side of Self-Servingness?” July 21, 2022, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2022/07/21/what-lies-on-the-other-side-of-self-servingness/.
(2) An industry exists that caters to those interests with movie stars, royalty and other celebrities as their focus. I don’t see the interest as furthering our spiritual growth particularly. Maybe someone can enlighten me.
At least not in the way these folks are being reported and the standards of reportage (or lack of them) that are apparently followed (or notr followed).
The way i see it, modern reporting seems to create taboos and then report on who’s observing them and who’s breaking them. We, hungry to break free of control, identify with one group and/or the other.
We sublimate our own frustrations and feel cleansed getting mad at this person or “so identifying” with that one. “That’ll teach him/her” or “poor boy/girl.”