Toward a World that Works for Everyone
When tension increases, awareness decreases. The converse should also be true: When tension decreases, (1) awareness should increase. And so, in the midst of chaos, my awareness appears to be increasing. Having dropped Constant Comment, weathered the eruption of Humiliation that followed, (pant, pant) I notice that I have reached a place of … well, […]
All this personal cleansing that I’m doing – and we’re doing – what’s its significance and how effective is it? The significance of personal cleansing is that it removes the various obstacles to realization (enlightenment). I’ve talked about the obstacles as vasanas (or core issues), habitual behavior patterns, and … I now see … the […]
I’d like to illustrate here the application of the upset clearing process to a really-tough vasana (or core issue). (1) I’m going to raise to awareness a feeling that’s difficult to experience. It’s so strong that it’s been roasting me alive for three days now. Constant Comment may be gone but my vasanas live! A […]
(Concluded from yesterday.) I decreed my oneness. I commanded that I be one from this moment onwards. And I did become one. And no sooner had I done that, then another, higher part of myself returned to me like a Slinkey reassembling itself. The one followed the other in rapid succession. These things never come […]
If you were the Humpty Dumpty man, had a great fall, and smashed into a million pieces, how would you put yourself back together again? What mantra/affirmation would you use? I am one? Sixty-six years after dissociating in that way, I’m nearing the point of becoming one again. (1) I never want to say the […]
I continue to observe the changes within me. Concurrent with feeling happiness for virtually the first time in my life – within memory – the other day, I also notice that I’m wandering around without something. I was repositioning a picture and, having accomplished something, I found myself waiting for the spoilers to come along […]
Sometimes I think that the mind is like the General and the heart is like the President. It’s kind of like a family. And what really fascinates me in it is the role of the feelings. They seem like children, tugging on their parent’s sleeves to get attention and get their wishes satisfied. Don’t get […]
Triggers just seem to keep going off. I have to be supervigilant not to launch into extreme thoughts and behavior. And not to then swing out onto the other extreme and super-protect myself from them, until the guardian again becomes the guard. (1) How to stay in the middle and yet be strong, resolute, determined? […]
There’s so much I want to say about the process I’ve just been through so things are not missed. The ideas are tumbling out. What I did was I processed a root vasana or core issue. Processing a vasana is the (wholesome) alternative to blaming and shouting at another person. Long ago I swore I […]
I was going through wave after wave of anger, experiencing it through to completion now that the vasana of father hatred was at last up. I resolved to be angry for as long as it took for the light to go on. And the light went on when I asked myself: What is the cost […]
So far the vasana with my Dad has manifested, as it did in 1986, as unbridled anger. But I seem to have left the anger phase now, and, even as the last fumes of father hatred dissipate, I’m beset by feelings of fear. This is a crystal-clear demonstration that anger sits on top of fear. […]
My life is a workshop in awareness. My agreement is to remain aware of myself. My process involves observing, noticing, and sharing. Viewed from a cultural-historical standpoint, my notes are an Ascension ethnography – a biography or narrative of one person’s slow and gradual, and sometimes sudden, Ascension process. Right now, I’m noticing the impact […]
Happy Canada Day, everyone! Yayayayayayay 2020! I was saying earlier that I regarded this as a time of Deep Cleansing. (1) However that works, I personally find that deep issues are arising. I’m now following the deep despondency I’ve felt in the background of my consciousness for what feels like all my life. And at […]
The story I’m making up for myself is that, because XXX is still alive, I don’t have to mourn him. I’ve known this all along but I haven’t been ready to hear it. Now I am. So I’m telling myself that we have time left. Accepting that, I’ve seen the grief lift. I’ve had a […]
Werner Erhard made the distinction between an us-against-them and an us-and-them world. A world that works for everyone is an us-and-them world. Others have called it win/win. Now, I was not raised in an us-and-them environment, not viewed from any angle – except perhaps the angle of the soccer or baseball team. Our team – […]
