I’m aware that part of me feels lethargic, drained. But I also see that I’m no longer following that part of me.
In the past, that part of me would have complained and I’d have gotten behind the complaint. That was my role in life: The complainer, the stick in the mud, the one who got a hearing by refusing to budge until he did.
So the complainer is still going off, but I’m no longer going with it.
Mind you, it seems as if I have to drag the complainer along with me. Unless I ask the Mother to recycle that energy. (Which I do.)
I’m not completely free of it, but in transition. Again a commitment to the divine qualities seems to shift a person away from these kinds of counterproductive habits, without one needing to do anything else than remain committed in the face of what comes up.
It’s getting easier and easier to stand back and observe the habits and easier and easier to do things – which are so foreign to me – like smile at a passerby on the street or a cashier.
I’m making eensy, teensy moves away from my constructed self toward the innocence and purity of my natural Self.
I can’t say “I’m doing this.” The slowly-increasing love vibrations that are saturating the planet are in all likelihood “doing this.” But I do notice the direction of the gradual shift.
My request of the Mother is to make me a beacon of her love. No, no, no. This is purely selfish. I have it all figured out.
If I’m a beacon of the Mother’s love, then her love will have to flow through me on its way out to the world. Can you imagine how that must feel?
I breathe love up from my heart on the inbreath and send it out to the world on the outbreath. It’s working better now than it was, say, six months ago. I melt in the face of transformative love.
I can see how our sources might say that there’s nothing more important we could be doing than sending love out. It’s important for us because the experience of this love as it goes through us is transformative. It sweeps away all worry and unhappiness.
And we’ve been told by Archangel Michael that we’re supposed to experience the love as it flows through us:
“Love is the energy of the universe. It is the energy of the Mother. And it moves constantly, continually, eternally, infinitely. So, to have an experience of love, it [must move] through you.” (1)
It’s important for the wider world because the love so anchored goes on and on, around the world, flowing through one and next through another. No one person can trap it or hold it for long.
I’m sure the multiplier effect would be startling. (2)
My mind is completely still at this moment. There are noises going off outside but they don’t interfere with my space (which is also unusual for me).
I am as still as I can imagine myself being.
(1) “Archangel Michael: Go with the Ebb and the Flow of Love,” channeled by Linda Dillon, April 3, 2014, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/04/05/archangel-michael-go-with-the-ebb-and-the-flow-of-love/.
(2) Twenty dollars given to a hotelier is not the end of the story. They give it to the butcher, who gives it to the dry cleaner, who gives it in change to a tourist, who is staying at the hotel. The twenty dollars goes round and round, multiplying its effect.