(Concluded from yesterday.)
I decreed my oneness. I commanded that I be one from this moment onwards.
And I did become one. And no sooner had I done that, then another, higher part of myself returned to me like a Slinkey reassembling itself.
The one followed the other in rapid succession. These things never come with labels so I don’t know what higher version of me that was.
But it joined with me from my back, the same way I returned to my body in 1977.
I invited it to look through my eyes. When it did, we merged, just as I did in 1977 with my body.
I then constructed an imaginary titanium ball around the two of us, to keep us protected, all of this in meditation.
And I asked all my past lives and other aspects of myself to return. I invited each of them to look through my eyes and we merged.
I left off this process feeling stronger, more confident, more capable.
Michael is very definitely helping me get bigger.
I was very much surprised that, when my higher self (higher than me, anyways) merged with me, there wasn’t the equivalent of thunder and lightning as I expected.
Its presence was supremely subtle, gentle, soothing. Again, that was completely unanticipated.
This is not enlightenment. If I can borrow Adyashanti’s term, I call this embodiment.
My higher self and all my aspects have embodied in me the same way I did with my body in 1977.
I am one again.
The next day….
I return to my meditation where I left off.
It’s not lost on me that my birth plan would involve massive dissociation at age 7 and I’d spend the rest of my life trying to put Humpty together again. Keep in mind the emphasis on achieving oneness.
And then consider the slingshot effect. A survivor of child sexual abuse leading the movement against child trafficking. Women survivors of sexual harassment and abuse confronting their abusers and cause an earthquake in places like Hollywood. Boys who were bullied as children becoming international judo masters.
The abuse is like a slingshot, pulling the stone further and further back with greater and greater force.
In my case, I was severely dissociated after my Dad yelled at me. The severity of it brings the slingshot effect into play.
Here I am with a life-puzzle of putting Humpty Dumpty together again.
The slingshot is pulled back with the target being achieving oneness.
Fracture into a million pieces and put yourself back together again. But when you have achieved that level of oneness (here comes the slingshot effect), why stop there? You’ve spent your whole life studying the process. Why not go for Oneness?
I’d love to but I’m in service. Achieving oneness suits my purposes. But achieving Oneness would be the end of the road for me vis-a-vis this Ascension. After that, hasta la vista, baby.
Nevertheless, I’ve reached a new level of oneness, of reassembly, of reintegration with myself and I actually do feel more confident, more capable, and stronger. And I can always explore Oneness from afar.
This is exactly the kind of work I need to do to get ready for ever-nearing events.
