I’m among the folks who don’t believe the November elections will happen quite the way we think they will. I believe they’ll be held on the quantum voting system, which will give a tamper-proof result. Moreover, I also believe that G/NESARA will be declared before election time but that, to be eligible for it, one […]
Self-Servingness Permeates Everything
Mine, mine, mine, you fool! Credit: Business2community.com Judgment, the ego, and desire seem to go hand in hand. Judging another elevates me in my own sight. It calls the ego into action to do the elevating. Desire is also a call to action. The ego arises to fulfill the desire. If another stands in the […]
The Cabal and Clarity
One of the foundations of spirituality is that the truth will set us free. I know often when I realize and speak the truth about an upset or issue, I feel a sudden and brief uplift, a release. When I’m processing an upset, I use this release to show me that I’m getting closer to […]
Why Do We … Uhhh, I … Seem to Need to Feel Special?
I’m relaxing today and would like to repost an article from Dec. 2017. The need to feel special is such a persistent character. The need is to feel that my input is crucial in all our wins, gains, and victories and has nothing whatsoever to do with our failures, losses, and defeats. I wrestle with […]
The Center is Where I Need to Make My Home
Two of the things that concern me about life after the Reval have to do with our impact on other people; specifically, the employees of our foundations. Let me paint a scenario in which the two factors play. We’re now the head of a large and wealthy humanitarian foundation. Several waves of the prosperity program […]
Self-Importance and Self-Negation or Security and Confidence?
Happy New Year, everyone! Happy New You! May all our many dreams come alive in 2021! In the meantime…. I’ve just glimpsed a vasana so strong that it’s always remained in the background. It defined the limits and channels of my life. My life oscillates between its two extremes. I’d like to look at it […]
Getting Out of My Own Way
My life is a workshop in awareness. My agreement is to remain aware of myself. My process involves observing, noticing, and sharing. Viewed from a cultural-historical standpoint, my notes are an Ascension ethnography – a biography or narrative of one person’s slow and gradual, and sometimes sudden, Ascension process. Right now, I’m noticing the impact […]
Hollowing Us Out
The story I’m making up for myself is that, because XXX is still alive, I don’t have to mourn him. I’ve known this all along but I haven’t been ready to hear it. Now I am. So I’m telling myself that we have time left. Accepting that, I’ve seen the grief lift. I’ve had a […]
Grief Waiting to Explode
I’ve just had some devastating news recently. It wouldn’t be fair to name the person involved. But I can’t imagine the shaft penetrating deeper into my heart. I’m going through one space after another – grief, hatred, the collapse of self-importance, helplessness. It also has me addressing some issues in my life that have been […]
Preventing My Own Pain by Staying in the Middle
What a difficult path it is to follow at the present moment. The pandemic is being revealed as a cabal initiative, their Doomsday Scenario #2 (World War III was #1). Yet we cannot downplay it so significantly that people fail to follow advisable medical procedures. After all, people really are dying from it. The Alliance […]
Calling Oneself on Self-Servingness
When I move from elementary to high school on the awareness path is when I’m prepared to call myself on my own self-serving agendas, anomalies, failings, losses, defeats, etc. That’s information that the other party may need in interacting with me, that I usually keep close to my chest as a deep dark secret. The […]
A Little More to Go
I hope my passing publicly through this redefinition phase is useful to you. It is to me. There’s still a little more to go. I noticed this evening that, in redefining myself, I only hurt if I threatened a self-image – such as by a loss of face, a loss of position, a loss of […]
The Job is to Love
Written prior to the Federation of Light’s message. The next layer of my constructed self or personality to arise is one of self-righteousness. This again is a face of the ego, which is itself a product of the mind. It’s also the creator of the constructed self. It’ll take the purification work I’ve done and […]
There is No Original Sin; Only Original Innocence
What is it that has people crave to feel important? Or special? Michael once said that we’d feel elevated after the Reval. He hoped we’d take the elevator to the basement. I see it in myself. When I look at myself, I see a child who was made to feel of little worth and much […]