I’m watching myself and have to share some noticeings. Sharing them is the final step in processing. I can be as self-serving as I like when I’m processing internally. But when I share, it isn’t as easy. The share is out there. It’s public. So I want to call myself on something. I need a […]
Message in a Bottle: In the Event that My Worldview Collapses….
Part One. I have a conference call in a short while and I asked myself: “How do you feel?” And the answer that came back surprised me: “I feel insecure.” Not “unsafe.” I don’t feel unsafe on any level. Michael has my back, front, and sides. But insecure. The distinction I make between them is […]
Is Nature Red in Tooth and Claw?
Well, if we’re shelving old paradigms by way of this creative chaos, then I nominate the Social Darwinist model for retirement, with thanks. It holds that life is a struggle for survival in which the strongest survive and the weakest go to the wall. It points to nature for its authority. Nature, it says, is […]
Escape from Adulthood: OK, That’s Enough of That
Clearly my personality survives intact in some way, shape or form. I don’t know what the road ahead holds. I can only report. What I report now arises from my practice, on the path of awareness, of maintaining awareness of myself. I detected a pattern. I was people-pleasing. I was complimenting someone on a coat […]
Autopilot Set to “Learn”
The way things seem to go, it’s often only after a condition has departed that we learn what it was and what it did. For example, hostility having been recognized and left, I’m now beginning to see some things about it. Hostility has many poses. One of them, I’m now seeing, is “Don’t mess with […]
The Worst Possible Virus: The Inner Hitler
When tension increases, awareness decreases. The converse should also be true: When tension decreases, (1) awareness should increase. And so, in the midst of chaos, my awareness appears to be increasing. Having dropped Constant Comment, weathered the eruption of Humiliation that followed, (pant, pant) I notice that I have reached a place of … well, […]
Body Ritual Among the Nacirema
In a search for an article by Michael I came across an old friend. (1) This one by Horace Miner was very influential on me in my university years, matched only by the books and articles of Erving Goffman and Eric Berne. It threw things into such stark relief that I never forgot it. It […]
The Caring Mind, the Adult State
Sometimes it seems to me that we have many selves. Maybe innumerable selves, I don’t know. Buddhists talk about hungry mind and grasping mind. The self or mind that I just noticed – and that I’m a virtual stranger to – I think of as the caring mind. I was in the middle of moaning […]
Emerging from the Shell
I was talking to a colleague when someone planted the idea in my mind – out of nowhere – that it’s all about emergence. For us it’s all about coming out of our shells. What is “it”? Growth. Enlightenment. Ultimately Ascension. We’ve been conditioned by a hundred forces all our lives. It’s time to come […]
Inner Peace Within?
One-hundred and seventy-six people had their lives snuffed out recently, over … well, it doesn’t really matter what or where. (1) And it isn’t the only loss of life today. Catastrophes and tragedies are happening all over and on a scale that is unprecedented – witness the false flags in Australia and China. I’d like […]
What’s Behind Making Myself Right and Others Wrong?
Pre-scheduled I’m trying to get to the bottom of the Third-Dimensional practice of making ourselves right and others wrong. From my own experience, this practice is transcended when we find ourselves in the higher-dimensional love characteristic of the Fifth Dimension and higher. In the Third Dimension, our vibrations are too dense to bring that kind […]
Using the Creation Formula
For finances, Michael has asked me to use the creation formula (1) and take action appropriate to my request. He isn’t just going to add a few zeroes to my bank account or magically materialize a block of dollars. I think he wants me to go through the process publicly to demonstrate how it works. […]
The Grand Motif
I notice that, as I go down through my vasanas or core issues, I reach a place where I can almost draw back and see the bigger picture. For instance, I’ve been reviewing my life and seeing how everything I did fits in with or has prepared me for what I’m doing now. History, academia, […]