When I think of Ascension as a journey up a mountain, I weep. Because for me, that’s how it’s seemed.
I could have said pulling myself out of a swamp. Or crossing a desert.
These are just images, but I feel so tired looking at the journey from this vantage point. It’s been a long and arduous climb out of a cesspool of hatred and felt unworthiness.
All mine. It’s my movie picture I’m producing and directing. Not saying otherwise.
I reached the conclusions I did and forged the decisions. And then I mask it with “you made me” and “if it hadn’t been for you.”
However, on this journey, self-responsibility has only been reached comparatively recently.
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The one development that’s allowed for the greatest illumination of my ways of being has been changing my vote from hostility to harmony. That has thrown so much into stark relief and I’ve written about that. (1)
It’s also provided an opening through which the divine states can gain entry. Michael refers to this process in explaining my heart opening on Feb. 13, 1987 and it’s this that I’d like to focus on here:
Archangel Michael: You (and this does apply to the collective) have done your, can we say, your homework, your due diligence. What we mean by this is simply, think of it in spatial reality, time and space reality: you have created the space for this [energy of love] to, not only pass by you like a passing breeze or a rain, but to anchor within you because there is a sense of this spaciousness within thee. …
When one is clinging to core issues, to fear, to lack, to limitation – you know the list – there is not that sense, not only of spaciousness, but of acceptance, allowance, readiness and even permission. Because as you know, we continually say that we will never override your free will.
So, if the will, either actively or subconsciously, is actually choosing to still engage in the issues or the drama, then although we are standing at readiness and still penetrating you, that open door is not there. (2)
Interesting.
Even though I’ve been through the process, I could not explain the mechanics of it. But Michael can. We then get to piece together his comments to form a picture of what must be going on unknown to us.
I can only imagine how it is that an archangel works on a human. All the time he’s watching for resistance and drawing back, allowing me my choices.
Don’t overlook a second, very important aspect of what Michael has said and this is seldom discussed in classical treatises on enlightenment. Notice that Michael fully acknowledges the celestial role in enlightenment:
“We will never override your free will.
“So, if the will, either actively or subconsciously, is actually choosing to still engage in the issues or the drama, then although we are standing at readiness and still penetrating you, that open door is not there. ”
Our lower-state vibrations (fear, anger, vengefulness, etc.) keep the door of our heart closed. A tsunami of love flows beyond those closed doors but of it we know nothing.
Meanwhile the celestials (angels, archangels, seraphim, etc.) stand ready to facilitate any breakthrough and penetrate us with love when we open up, but we’re closed to the idea, the process, the whole thing.
Don’t overlook another thing. I return to this journey up the mountain or out of the swamp or across the desert, day after day after day? Why do I do it?
What drives a person on, lifetime after lifetime, enlightened sages have called “the longing for liberation.” (3) It’s a low-level, subtidal thirst that can only be satisfied by the Divine. It’s a longing for God that’s at once bitter and sweet. And it draws us all on to re-union with the One.
So that’s why I don’t abandon climbing the mountain, leaving the swamp, or crossing the desert. I’ve had enough glimpses of what awaits me to know the destination is worth the rigor.
Footnotes
(1) See “From Hostility to Harmony,” Oct. 2, 2020, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/?p=313728 and “Breakthrough,” Oct. 4, 2020, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/?p=313764
(2) Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, March 13, 2015.
(3) See “The Longing for Liberation,” August 20, 2010, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2010/08/20/the-longing-for-liberation/; “Understanding the Longing for Liberation – Part ⅓,” October 16, 2016, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2016/10/16/understanding-longing-liberation-part-13/; “Understanding the Longing for Liberation – Part 2/3,” October 16, 2016, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2016/10/16/understanding-longing-liberation-part-23/; and “Understanding the Longing for Liberation – Part 3/3,” October 17, 2016, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2016/10/17/understanding-longing-liberation-part-33/