Toward a World that Works for Everyone
Seeing the script I have playing – and the discoveries that it’s leading to – is like an earthquake in my life. (1) And it’s led to numerous aftershocks. It’s opened the door for me to complete the cycle of domestic abuse that occurred in our household. It’s led me to see the identity I […]
As the chaos swirls outside, the chaos swirls inside as well. In this article I process a residual feeling state. Doing this, I hope, allows me to do a better job in post-Reval roles. And of course every one I can dissolve frees me and elevates my space, which is a contribution to Ascension. It’s […]
(Concluded from Part 1, yesterday.) I had such a classic example of old programming going off this morning, exactly as I was working on this article. I have to relate it here. A friend phoned earlyish in the morning and asked me a favor which was at the limits of inconvenience. I said “no,” but […]
I’d like to make a distinction between objective fact and subjective interpretation. The worst I ever did was steal a chocolate bar. OK, a tin of rock candy too. For both of which I was caught and disciplined. That’s an objective fact. Apart from those cries for help (my father was hitting my mother), I […]
I’ve reached the end of the road with an act of mine, a racket, a number. I’ve processed this number before. I’m processing it now at a much deeper level. Its presenting sign is that I wake up in the morning and I’m not cheerful. Nothing has happened that I be anything but cheerful, but […]
I’m watching myself and have to share some noticeings. Sharing them is the final step in processing. I can be as self-serving as I like when I’m processing internally. But when I share, it isn’t as easy. The share is out there. It’s public. So I want to call myself on something. I need a […]
Would you allow me a personal reflection for a moment? I live in a paradoxical situation where my readers know more about me than most of my friends. I don’t mean this as a criticism. It makes sense. Local conversation might go like, “What did you do today?” And I reply with a litany of […]
When tension increases, awareness decreases. The converse should also be true: When tension decreases, (1) awareness should increase. And so, in the midst of chaos, my awareness appears to be increasing. Having dropped Constant Comment, weathered the eruption of Humiliation that followed, (pant, pant) I notice that I have reached a place of … well, […]
Triggers just seem to keep going off. I have to be supervigilant not to launch into extreme thoughts and behavior. And not to then swing out onto the other extreme and super-protect myself from them, until the guardian again becomes the guard. (1) How to stay in the middle and yet be strong, resolute, determined? […]
I seem to be in a process of emergence. As I move forward in it, I bump into major roadblocks again and again. I’m bumping into one now. I’m not surprised that it’s come up. The minute one takes a position, up comes the opposition. I’ve taken a position, “no more global small talk – […]
Thanks to Kathleen. Excerpted from: Thomas Hübl on the Collective Trauma Online Summit https://thomashuebl.com/collective-trauma-online-summit/ The World is Traumatized We are all born into a traumatized world. That is why we only know it this way and it seems normal to us at first. Many individual traumatizations therefore, do not come into conflict with the surrounding […]
I notice that, as I go down through my vasanas or core issues, I reach a place where I can almost draw back and see the bigger picture. For instance, I’ve been reviewing my life and seeing how everything I did fits in with or has prepared me for what I’m doing now. History, academia, […]
I continue to focus my attention on how I am with other people, especially in conflict. I still spark and turn the other person into the enemy. I go out of relationship with them and break the connection over issues that arise. Recently Fedex lost a parcel of mine and I could have used the […]
I personally don’t have as much time to process vasanas these days as I did a few years ago. I have to make room for speedier measures. And so today I just dug in and asked myself: What is the chief mischief maker? Never mind beating around the bush. Let’s get to the heart of […]
Whenever I feel guilt or shame or dismay, I can say with certainty that my Wounded Child is in the driver’s seat. I can say this with certainty because of what I saw and felt in a meditation I did at Xenia Retreat Center on Sept. 18, 2018. I saw the Self in the depths […]
