March 19, 2021 Fierce-throated beauty! Roll through my chant with all thy lawless music, thy swinging lamps at night, Thy madly-whistled laughter… Thy trills of shrieks by rocks and hills return’d, Launch’d o’er the prairies wide, across the lakes, To the free skies unpent and glad and strong. ~Walt Whitman, To a Locomotive in Winter […]
The Way Life Works for Me – Part 2/2
(Concluded from Part 1, yesterday.) If we bring that knowledge now down to the personal, if we narrow the range of the microscope again to the individual … well, me … then what I want to do (and for you it may be different) is to remove the obstacles to feeling wonderful in my life. […]
Speak of a Beachhead
Before thinking about bringing peace to the world, we may need to bring peace to ourselves. This article is part of that process for me. I notice I’m not creating as much residue, as much debris in my wake as I used to. I’m still dropping a royal clanger every now and then, but not […]
Thank You to the Troll Under the Bridge … and Goodbye
I’ve reached the end of the road with an act of mine, a racket, a number. I’ve processed this number before. I’m processing it now at a much deeper level. Its presenting sign is that I wake up in the morning and I’m not cheerful. Nothing has happened that I be anything but cheerful, but […]
Now Arrogance Surfacing
I’m watching myself and have to share some noticeings. Sharing them is the final step in processing. I can be as self-serving as I like when I’m processing internally. But when I share, it isn’t as easy. The share is out there. It’s public. So I want to call myself on something. I need a […]
Everything Hid Shall be Known
I’ve said this is a rich time for the student of awareness. Creative chaos shakes everything up and makes change possible. There’s a saying from Jesus in this regard. He stated that “there is nothing covered that shall not be revealed, and hid, that shall not be known.” I think this is the time he […]
A Lightworker at the Helm
Heading into the last weeks before the election, I expect the deep state to start going crazy, reporting all manner of bad things they did as having been done by the other guys. In international affairs, it’s called the mirror effect – blame your enemy for what they blame you for. Tit for tat. In […]
Escape from Adulthood: OK, That’s Enough of That
Clearly my personality survives intact in some way, shape or form. I don’t know what the road ahead holds. I can only report. What I report now arises from my practice, on the path of awareness, of maintaining awareness of myself. I detected a pattern. I was people-pleasing. I was complimenting someone on a coat […]
Getting Bigger, Getting Bolder, Getting Moving
Everything, it seems, is a confidence game. Not just as in a swindle. Let’s leave that meaning aside and look at the role of confidence in what we do in our everyday lives. I could never drive a bus. I don’t have the confidence. I could never fly an airplane, do heart surgery, or drive […]
And Then, Another Bridge
I’m finding there comes a time when a bridge is crossed. It’s one of many bridges, one of them being Ascension itself. (1) And, like so much else, for the experience to flower, I have to consciously recognize what’s happening. I have to move from unconscious awareness of the thing in question to conscious awareness. […]
Being Cooped Up in a Form
While my awareness having expanded beyond the limits of my body is a landmark event, the actual experience itself is quite neutral, almost imperceptible. It’s as if a storm has stopped and it’s the next morning. All is quiet and renewed. I feel more relaxed. I was describing my experience to a friend. I said […]
The Worst Possible Virus: The Inner Hitler
When tension increases, awareness decreases. The converse should also be true: When tension decreases, (1) awareness should increase. And so, in the midst of chaos, my awareness appears to be increasing. Having dropped Constant Comment, weathered the eruption of Humiliation that followed, (pant, pant) I notice that I have reached a place of … well, […]
The Work Feelings like Humiliation Do
It seems that sometimes our experiences are more clearly understood with the passage of time. The clearing of my “humiliation thread” or vasana (core issue) was super-painful. But more about it is becoming available several days later. I now find that even the smallest infraction of the rules brings with it an experience of humiliation. […]
Grounding is Next as I Prepare
The Company of Heaven are continually asking us to drop anchor in Gaia, to send an energetic cable down to Gaia’s heart and there fasten it to her – in other words, to ground ourselves. Viewed from another perspective, I notice in myself that, when I allow my center of gravity to rise up as […]
Cleaning Up the Residue: The “Work” in “Growth Work”
Seeing a vasana (or core issue) disappear for a time is not the end of the road. Vasanas can reappear and re-establish themselves if we fall back into living life by following what have become habitual behavior patterns. Habitual behavior patterns are one form of residue, precipitate, the fallout from our vasanas. They linger even […]