If you were the Humpty Dumpty man, had a great fall, and smashed into a million pieces, how would you put yourself back together again? What mantra/affirmation would you use? I am one? Sixty-six years after dissociating in that way, I’m nearing the point of becoming one again. (1) I never want to say the […]
Cleaning Up the Residue: The “Work” in “Growth Work”
Seeing a vasana (or core issue) disappear for a time is not the end of the road. Vasanas can reappear and re-establish themselves if we fall back into living life by following what have become habitual behavior patterns. Habitual behavior patterns are one form of residue, precipitate, the fallout from our vasanas. They linger even […]
A Time of Purification?
Triggers just seem to keep going off. I have to be supervigilant not to launch into extreme thoughts and behavior. And not to then swing out onto the other extreme and super-protect myself from them, until the guardian again becomes the guard. (1) How to stay in the middle and yet be strong, resolute, determined? […]
Whose Shepherd I am
So far the vasana with my Dad has manifested, as it did in 1986, as unbridled anger. But I seem to have left the anger phase now, and, even as the last fumes of father hatred dissipate, I’m beset by feelings of fear. This is a crystal-clear demonstration that anger sits on top of fear. […]
What Does Angelic Protection Mean?
Again, doing research on an entirely-different topic, I came across this 2017 conversation with Michael where he discusses the human tendency not to fully trust the Mother and the celestials. I can speak to the fear he points to here. Living almost entirely on donations can make one’s teeth chatter. Unless one has been told […]
Getting Out of My Own Way
My life is a workshop in awareness. My agreement is to remain aware of myself. My process involves observing, noticing, and sharing. Viewed from a cultural-historical standpoint, my notes are an Ascension ethnography – a biography or narrative of one person’s slow and gradual, and sometimes sudden, Ascension process. Right now, I’m noticing the impact […]
Not Elegant, Just Workable
I was saying earlier that I regarded this as a time of Deep Cleansing. (1) However that works, I personally find that deep issues are arising. I’m now following the deep despondency I’ve felt in the background of my consciousness for what feels like all my life. And at last I’m connecting with an utter […]
The Outer and the Inner
I suggested earlier that we all help the planet out and voluntarily quarantine ourselves for two weeks. (1) Well, here we all are, voluntarily and involuntarily quarantined, in a laboratory experiment in isolation and social distancing. You’re free for the evening, right? Humor me then. Let’s pretend we’re sociology students. I’m exploring what the impact […]
Our Future and Our Destiny: Are We There Yet?
Time for something completely different. It took me years and years to realize that what was making me mad was not the person standing in front of me but a person who stood in front of me decades and decades ago. On that occasion years ago I reached a conclusion about life and a decision […]
Glimpses of What Lies Ahead
Having newly discovered, or re-discovered perhaps, my balanced adult, (1) I’m now having fun with it. I spilled a bottle of glue today while transferring it from one bottle to another. I enjoyed watching myself clean up the mess, moderately. I knew full well (without a barrier of resistance appearing) that I could restore the […]
I Go Another Way
Over and over I return to the sense I have that our responses to our feelings are the major drivers in our lives. I watch myself move from one feeling to another – from happiness to irritation, from concern to relaxation – and what I notice about myself is my extreme reaction in the face […]
Emerging from the Shell
I was talking to a colleague when someone planted the idea in my mind – out of nowhere – that it’s all about emergence. For us it’s all about coming out of our shells. What is “it”? Growth. Enlightenment. Ultimately Ascension. We’ve been conditioned by a hundred forces all our lives. It’s time to come […]
Living Up to a Higher Standard
I was deeply moved by watching Martin Luther King deliver his 1963 “I Have a Dream” speech. I found myself immersed in inner work in response to it – in between my tears from being moved. Aided by the buoyancy I felt from listening, at that moment, the penny dropped for me on what Archangel […]
Understanding the Constructed Self
Please accept a combined Christmas and New Years gift from us to you – a new book on the constructed self. What’s the importance of knowing about the constructed self? The constructed self is the view of ourselves – also called a mask, act, or self-image – we try to sell to others. When we […]
No Earthly Master
I just realized that I serve no earthly master. I serve my heavenly master, Archangel Michael, and, behind him, the Source of All, the Divine Mother/Father God. But I mean I realized it. Not just experienced it or had a good thought about it. I just want to sit with that. I want to get […]