Toward a World that Works for Everyone
Vesuvius is quietening down. Let me do a post-mortem. Father hatred leaves me flat, unresponsive, shallow in my compassion. Hindus call that state of mind thamasic, lethargic. In my everyday awareness, I can feel it only subtly, as a slightly negative attitude towards everything – not skeptical but pessimistic. Disbelief, despair, depression. As I said […]
So far the vasana with my Dad has manifested, as it did in 1986, as unbridled anger. But I seem to have left the anger phase now, and, even as the last fumes of father hatred dissipate, I’m beset by feelings of fear. This is a crystal-clear demonstration that anger sits on top of fear. […]
My life is a workshop in awareness. My agreement is to remain aware of myself. My process involves observing, noticing, and sharing. Viewed from a cultural-historical standpoint, my notes are an Ascension ethnography – a biography or narrative of one person’s slow and gradual, and sometimes sudden, Ascension process. Right now, I’m noticing the impact […]
I was saying earlier that I regarded this as a time of Deep Cleansing. (1) However that works, I personally find that deep issues are arising. I’m now following the deep despondency I’ve felt in the background of my consciousness for what feels like all my life. And at last I’m connecting with an utter […]
Having newly discovered, or re-discovered perhaps, my balanced adult, (1) I’m now having fun with it. I spilled a bottle of glue today while transferring it from one bottle to another. I enjoyed watching myself clean up the mess, moderately. I knew full well (without a barrier of resistance appearing) that I could restore the […]
Over and over I return to the sense I have that our responses to our feelings are the major drivers in our lives. I watch myself move from one feeling to another – from happiness to irritation, from concern to relaxation – and what I notice about myself is my extreme reaction in the face […]
Self-acceptance, it seems to me, is the largest part of a healing process from childhood trauma. Or so it has proven for me in my process – still underway. A short while ago, I found myself feeling proud of myself for what I’d accomplished in this lifetime. Feeling proud of myself is utterly foreign to […]
One-hundred and seventy-six people had their lives snuffed out recently, over … well, it doesn’t really matter what or where. (1) And it isn’t the only loss of life today. Catastrophes and tragedies are happening all over and on a scale that is unprecedented – witness the false flags in Australia and China. I’d like […]
February 3, 2020, jennyschiltz.com https://tinyurl.com/taf4boh Trigger Warning: Suicide We are in a stage now where we are seeing deeper into the constructs of the personality self. We are being shown the deepest layers of fear, grief, victimhood, shame, and even hatred for self or others. We are being asked to choose in each moment which […]
(Concluded from Part 1, above.) Written in the midst of a spiritual experience Meanwhile, everything we do together as a collective is a carefully-scripted drama, in which we have the right to depart from our agreed-upon lines. Well, now that I’m free of thinking that what I do or do not do matters, the question […]
I’m expanding and revising five or six books at once, getting ready for the demand for information I anticipate, following the announcement of the delegations or the Reval. And as I run through articles for inclusion in the expanded editions, I’m coming across some that I can’t not repost. This is one of them – […]
As you know, I need to use this time to sandpaper some of my rougher qualities if I’m to be of use later on. Part of an Ascension ethnography is the cleansing or purification phase, known to all terrestrial students of enlightenment. However, things have changed now with the rising energies, it seems. Vasanas that […]
When we talk about the assumption of divine authority, it sounds as if we’re talking about a new sheriff in town. Perhaps we are. I’d like to look at “divine authority” as an aspect of taking charge of ourselves. I know others use the concept in ways different than that, but that’s what I’d like […]
By Adam Goldberg May 30, 2019 “. . . something to be said how religious parents tend to have a more authoritarian parenting style.” httpss://www.anonews.co/children-raised-religion/ According to a study published in Current Biology in 2015, children raised without religion tend to be kinder than children brought up in very religious households. The study was a […]
Here it is a beautiful sunny Sunday. I’m sitting here saying to myself, you should go outside. I don’t want to go outside. I’m lying here waiting. But for what? After looking and looking, what I see inside is that I’m wanting to feel a certain way. That’s what I’m looking for. Not just being […]
