I call the source of trauma vasanas; Linda calls them core issues; these folks call them trauma. The name doesn’t matter. But all are agreed that these are the main obstacle to our happiness. The ABCs of Psychological Trauma Stillness in the Storm, 07/15/20 httpss://stillnessinthestorm.com/2019/07/the-abcs-of-psychological-trauma/ Although psychological trauma doesn’t affect everyone in the same way, […]
Drama and Harmlessness – Part 1/2
As I go about observing my responses to things, seeing where I flip into potential harmfulness … OK, attack mode … I see that I cannot observe a vow to be harmless and yet engage in drama. The two are irreconcilable. They cannot both exist in the same space. A number of games in Eric […]
Drama and Harmlessness – Part 2/2
Concluded from Part 1, above.) I’m not becoming a zealot or a purist. (Doesn’t this sound like a juggling act?) I’m convinced that all this is happening because of three things: (1) The impact of the rising energies, (2) the approach of major events, and (3) the impact of my knowledge of future responsibilities – […]
Now or Never
I continue to focus my attention on how I am with other people, especially in conflict. I still spark and turn the other person into the enemy. I go out of relationship with them and break the connection over issues that arise. Recently Fedex lost a parcel of mine and I could have used the […]
Archaeological Dig into Strong Desire
I have (and I wonder if we have as well) many urgent needs, strong desires that I serve endlessly – and without question. An example would be a strong desire for affirmation that’s authentic and not manipulative. I was criticized as a child at the very time when a son wants a father to be […]
Did You Return to the Fray?
I personally don’t have as much time to process vasanas these days as I did a few years ago. I have to make room for speedier measures. And so today I just dug in and asked myself: What is the chief mischief maker? Never mind beating around the bush. Let’s get to the heart of […]
When is the Wounded Child in the Driver’s Seat?
Whenever I feel guilt or shame or dismay, I can say with certainty that my Wounded Child is in the driver’s seat. I can say this with certainty because of what I saw and felt in a meditation I did at Xenia Retreat Center on Sept. 18, 2018. I saw the Self in the depths […]
Welcome to the Third Dimension
I’ve traced this lack of compassion that I feel back to the crib. My arms were tied to the sides of the crib to stop me from scratching as a result of having excema. I was wheeled into the kitchen and left there all night no matter how much I cried. (1) I concluded that […]
Layer Upon Layer of Constructed Self
A friend called me the other day on not acting very compassionately. And she was right. There is a side of me that’s superficial, uncaring, unconcerned. I’m incredibly shallow about the world and I actually don’t know what to do about it. Seeing how shallow I am brings up fresh, new levels of constructed self […]
Recoil from Perceived Criticism
I notice that, when my personality, my constructed self is in the driver’s seat, any action that goes wrong stands as an indictment of my whole personality – so conditioned have I become to criticism. Let me exaggerate a bit to make my point. This is the emotional truth for me, not the actual truth […]
How I See Myself
From observing myself, I’m becoming convinced that the most important factor in how I feel, how my health is generally, and how I feel about myself is how I see myself. I’ve sifted through everything – thoughts, feelings, vasanas, patterns, and interests – and what I see as the prime architect (1) of every action […]
That’s My Target
The Arcturians asked us to master every thought and feeling. I’d like to talk about mastering feelings for a moment. I watch myself and I see myself talking about things in a way that reflects how I feel – gloomy, depressed, elevated, happy. I “come from” the context of the feeling I’m presently experiencing. If […]
Three Windows into Vasanas
I’d like to post three discussions which are very relevant to anyone studying or processing core issues or vasanas. They tell us why it works to process them, how persistent vasanas are, and why there is no need to process beneficial vasanas. Why should we process our vasanas? Steve: The work we do in completing […]
About-Turn
The combination of processing my vasanas, patterns, and interests and exporting these gains to the outside (by interacting with people rather than fleeing from them) is revealing things to me. For instance, this morning, I re-connected with my happy self. I was about to shave and I remembered my Christmas as a shaving-cream Santa. In […]
Next Stage
Remaining aware of my issues, patterns, and interests, with my adult in the driver’s seat and me, the observer, in overall command, I seem able, if I wish, to remain fairly balanced, fairly “normal.” Part of the Arcturians’ challenge may have been met. (1) I may even soon be ready to offer my natural, innocent, […]
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