I think I should keep a diary at this time because what has happened has opened a door and, if others are going to find it and walk through it, I need to be as detailed about the event and its aftermath as possible.
Mankind as a whole is at a level of readiness for higher truth. ( The Arcturian Group, April 19, 2026, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2026/04/20/the-arcturian-group-via-marilyn-raffaele-april-19-2026/.
I feel the need to repeat myself on the wisdom of not saying or doing anything future-binding (like making a promise) when you’re in the middle of an experience like the emergence I just went through or in the afterglow as the experience recedes.
Breakthrough is not like enlightenment. The heart opening and the sight of the Self (fourth-chakra enlightenments) both opened onto love and innocence.
But an emergence or breakthrough pushes the body and breaks some long-standing, protective connections. The body reacts, I believe, by pulling itself together again after the experience.
It was binding myself to an ambitious future action that brought me crashing down in 1982 after an est Training, out of which I came hugely inspired.
In present day, I’d begun planning two ambitious publishing programs. I was going to bring back the Growth Movement’s down-to-Earth wisdom around coming alive and actually being present in our lives.
But after snapback and during integration, I saw that, short of med beds, I don’t have the physical/energy reserves to deliver on such an ambitious program yet.
So I saved a lot of embarrassment by waiting until I was out of snapback to assess and perhaps initiate a great change.
And I’m sharing that experience as a cautionary note: Wait until you’re out of afterglow and snapback before making big decisions.
I’m in the integration phase now, in which I see what has survived snapback and get realistic about what’s next.