The Arcturians asked us to master every thought and feeling.
I’d like to talk about mastering feelings for a moment.
I watch myself and I see myself talking about things in a way that reflects how I feel – gloomy, depressed, elevated, happy. I “come from” the context of the feeling I’m presently experiencing.
If I feel gloomy, I might be hard to rouse when you’re talking about something happy. If I feel happy, I might be hard to shut up.
But I speak out of the context of the feeling I’m going through at that moment – most times.
All the time I’m doing this, I’m unaware I’m doing it. And sometimes I’m aware and hoping no one notices – when everyone does.
Is this not the wicked web we weave when first we practice to deceive? In the growth movement, we just owned it and got off it or continued on with awareness. It very soon disappears as a problem in an atomosphere of transparency.
I don’t want to add suppression to unconsciousness.
Again it calls on me to reparent myself – to get into, underneath, and over top of unproductive feelings and give myself better directions. Mastering my feelings is a job for my Adult.
If I’m to do the job(s) I’m asked to do, I feel the need not to be subject to the sway of negative feelings (positive feelings don’t present a problem).
Rewiring myself, reprogramming myself – because habitual behavior won’t disappear; we just need to be wise in what we choose to make a habit – reparenting myself seems the best way to find my balance point, my centerpoint in responding to my feelings.
In that center resides tranquillity. That’s my target.