Going deeper is the exact opposite of a meme war. A meme war promotes superficial thinking and a rush to judgment. I’m advocating increasing depth: Go deeper. When I go deeper and look at the current situation, I see that the first thing that’s needed, in my opinion, is for us to lower the temperature […]
Getting Out of My Own Way
My life is a workshop in awareness. My agreement is to remain aware of myself. My process involves observing, noticing, and sharing. Viewed from a cultural-historical standpoint, my notes are an Ascension ethnography – a biography or narrative of one person’s slow and gradual, and sometimes sudden, Ascension process. Right now, I’m noticing the impact […]
Hollowing Us Out
The story I’m making up for myself is that, because XXX is still alive, I don’t have to mourn him. I’ve known this all along but I haven’t been ready to hear it. Now I am. So I’m telling myself that we have time left. Accepting that, I’ve seen the grief lift. I’ve had a […]
Are We the Best Judge of Our Own Failings?
Are we the best judge of our own failings? I don’t want to choose a particular “failing” because I’d immediately open the door to a passionate, perhaps angry debate. And the debates tend to skyrocket easily. Before long we’ve gone nuclear and we’re lobbing memes at each other. That isn’t what I want. You’re welcome […]
A Radical Change of Vote
Over the years, I’ve regarded “positive thinking” as naive and simplistic. I’ve seen it as papering over reality, confining spontaneity, etc. I’ve preferred such things as “truth” and “authenticity” to it. However, recently, having had a vasana go off related to long bank lineups, I delved more deeply. I began to see that my support […]
Calling Oneself on Self-Servingness
When I move from elementary to high school on the awareness path is when I’m prepared to call myself on my own self-serving agendas, anomalies, failings, losses, defeats, etc. That’s information that the other party may need in interacting with me, that I usually keep close to my chest as a deep dark secret. The […]
A Little More to Go
I hope my passing publicly through this redefinition phase is useful to you. It is to me. There’s still a little more to go. I noticed this evening that, in redefining myself, I only hurt if I threatened a self-image – such as by a loss of face, a loss of position, a loss of […]
The Picture of Dorian Gray
I came across the Mother’s comment about the fate of dictators this morning. She said: “It is painful for a being that seeks power for themselves or power over another, whether it is a parent over a child, a husband over a wife, a man over an army. It matters not. “The yearning [for], the […]
New Ways of Being in the Face of Bad News
I learned early in life, as the runt of the litter, to use resentment strategically. I’d carry a resentment forever, never forget, remind people continuously … on and on the dreary story goes. And now, as a lightworker journalist, I was (we were) asked by the Federation of Light recently: “Offer out the Energy of […]
The Job is to Love
Written prior to the Federation of Light’s message. The next layer of my constructed self or personality to arise is one of self-righteousness. This again is a face of the ego, which is itself a product of the mind. It’s also the creator of the constructed self. It’ll take the purification work I’ve done and […]
On Self-Servingness
Remaining aware of vasanas, patterns, and interests might be enough to keep me on track if it wasn’t for the intervention of self-servingness. Sociologists call it the self-serving bias. The Company of Heaven calls it service-to-self. It’s a construction of a mind convinced that we must struggle with each other for a fixed amount of […]