Writer’s Corner I so much enjoyed Valerie’s description of her grumpy side and recent ‘departure from form.’ Hi Steve, thank you for your very kind email and virtual hug! I loved it. Just a bit of a story and a few comments as follow up: Steve recently described the feeling of an ‘unsatisfying emotional baseline.’ […]
Healing the Dissociative Split
I’m always pleasantly surprised when someone writes in and says that troll article really resonated with me; I don’t think I’d call mine a troll, but waking up to a low emotional baseline I can relate to. Heavens, I write awareness/stream of consciousness in the hope beyond hope that it resonates with others and helps […]
Freediver Stig Pryds: Breathing for Healing Auto-immune Disorder
Stig Pryds is a Danish record holding freediver. He was diagnosed with psoriatic arthritis in 2008, which disabled him so much that he lost his business. After 5 years of intense pain and increasing dependency on drugs, he decided to quit all drugs cold turkey, and find alternative ways to deal with his disease. He […]
Matt Kahn: The Way
https://tinyurl.com/3texbtbt Anger says: “I’m so mad that I can’t get my way and I don’t know what to do about it.” Sadness says: “It’s so unfair that I can’t get my way.” Fear says: “I can’t imagine not getting my way.” Denial says: “My way would be so much better.” Boredom says: “My way […]
Blossom Goodchild: My Turn!
Escape from Adulthood: OK, That’s Enough of That
Clearly my personality survives intact in some way, shape or form. I don’t know what the road ahead holds. I can only report. What I report now arises from my practice, on the path of awareness, of maintaining awareness of myself. I detected a pattern. I was people-pleasing. I was complimenting someone on a coat […]
Getting Bigger, Getting Bolder, Getting Moving
Everything, it seems, is a confidence game. Not just as in a swindle. Let’s leave that meaning aside and look at the role of confidence in what we do in our everyday lives. I could never drive a bus. I don’t have the confidence. I could never fly an airplane, do heart surgery, or drive […]
The Worst Possible Virus: The Inner Hitler
When tension increases, awareness decreases. The converse should also be true: When tension decreases, (1) awareness should increase. And so, in the midst of chaos, my awareness appears to be increasing. Having dropped Constant Comment, weathered the eruption of Humiliation that followed, (pant, pant) I notice that I have reached a place of … well, […]
What’s the Significance and Effectiveness of Personal Cleansing?
All this personal cleansing that I’m doing – and we’re doing – what’s its significance and how effective is it? The significance of personal cleansing is that it removes the various obstacles to realization (enlightenment). I’ve talked about the obstacles as vasanas (or core issues), habitual behavior patterns, and … I now see … the […]
A Time of Purification?
Triggers just seem to keep going off. I have to be supervigilant not to launch into extreme thoughts and behavior. And not to then swing out onto the other extreme and super-protect myself from them, until the guardian again becomes the guard. (1) How to stay in the middle and yet be strong, resolute, determined? […]
Vesuvius is Quiet
Vesuvius is quietening down. Let me do a post-mortem. Father hatred leaves me flat, unresponsive, shallow in my compassion. Hindus call that state of mind thamasic, lethargic. In my everyday awareness, I can feel it only subtly, as a slightly negative attitude towards everything – not skeptical but pessimistic. Disbelief, despair, depression. As I said […]
Whose Shepherd I am
So far the vasana with my Dad has manifested, as it did in 1986, as unbridled anger. But I seem to have left the anger phase now, and, even as the last fumes of father hatred dissipate, I’m beset by feelings of fear. This is a crystal-clear demonstration that anger sits on top of fear. […]
Emerging from the Shell
I had no success accessing this vasana. (1) It’s the same root vasana of father hatred that I’ve been dealing with since I was a young child. It shows how tenacious a vasana can be. I finally invoked universal law and asked Archangel Michael and the Divine Mother to take the whole of it away, […]
The Next Step for Me
I seem to be in a process of emergence. As I move forward in it, I bump into major roadblocks again and again. I’m bumping into one now. I’m not surprised that it’s come up. The minute one takes a position, up comes the opposition. I’ve taken a position, “no more global small talk – […]
The Longest Road Back
Going deeper is the exact opposite of a meme war. A meme war promotes superficial thinking and a rush to judgment. I’m advocating increasing depth: Go deeper. When I go deeper and look at the current situation, I see that the first thing that’s needed, in my opinion, is for us to lower the temperature […]