Toward a World that Works for Everyone
Whenever I feel guilt or shame or dismay, I can say with certainty that my Wounded Child is in the driver’s seat. I can say this with certainty because of what I saw and felt in a meditation I did at Xenia Retreat Center on Sept. 18, 2018. I saw the Self in the depths […]
I notice that, when my personality, my constructed self is in the driver’s seat, any action that goes wrong stands as an indictment of my whole personality – so conditioned have I become to criticism. Let me exaggerate a bit to make my point. This is the emotional truth for me, not the actual truth […]
Finding the Hope in Hopelessness and How 1+1=One Kathleen Mary Willis, Voice of Freedom.ca, n.d. httpss://voiceoffreedom.ca/sacred-insights-2/ Much of my life I’ve struggled with depression. From that depressive place, I attracted situations of drama. Like attracts like. When I started sitting still — to feel into the pain of my depression — I began to understand […]
The combination of processing my vasanas, patterns, and interests and exporting these gains to the outside (by interacting with people rather than fleeing from them) is revealing things to me. For instance, this morning, I re-connected with my happy self. I was about to shave and I remembered my Christmas as a shaving-cream Santa. In […]
Remaining aware of my issues, patterns, and interests, with my adult in the driver’s seat and me, the observer, in overall command, I seem able, if I wish, to remain fairly balanced, fairly “normal.” Part of the Arcturians’ challenge may have been met. (1) I may even soon be ready to offer my natural, innocent, […]
Most people would encounter the lessons I’m learning over a gradual period of growing up. The process would be called “maturing.” But, because of dissociation at an early age due to domestic violence, I “matured” only slowly and incompletely. Like many others, I built a constructed self around my disabilities. Scrapper, activist, etc. The only […]
Eric Berne’s ego states are particularly helpful in looking at the operation I’m doing on myself. What Berne meant by “ego state,” I think, would be the same as what we mean by “states of consciousness.” “Ego’” here just means “I.” If I can adapt his terms, I grew up with a bad-parent ego state […]
I turned to enlightened Gestalt therapist John Enright to help me figure out how being right works. However I felt that some of the distinctions he made are so enjoyable and provocative that I decided to share them raw. John made it his his intention to find out what made Fritz Perls such a successful […]
As I reparent myself and make my transition from sad … and mad … to glad, my sensitivity to my feelings increases. I become more aware of feelings that would have just been my “normal” back then. I was one compacted, compounded person. At the same time, I’ve been looking through the scrapbook Dad prepared […]
The Trauma of Toxic Masculinity Jared Yates Sexton, Yes! Magazine, April 19, 2019. httpss://tinyurl.com/y4rjy7nw What really lies beneath the anger and aggression of traditional White masculinity? During the two years I reported from the 2016 campaign trail, I watched stump speeches in cramped union halls and polished addresses to thousands, survived the major conventions, dodged flash […]
Triggering. And what to do about it! Arn (Zingdad) Allingham httpss://zingdad.com/blog/196-triggering-and-what-to-do-about-it The psychological effect of “being triggered” by an external event is something that one hears about a great deal these days. It has become a mainstream concept, often mentioned in the press and in online articles. The concept, in case you are not familiar […]
I’m learning so much from exploring this commanding attitude of taking charge. A few months ago, will reasserted itself in the Humpty Dumpty Man. Now he’s taking charge. I see this as part of a radical reconstruction of my self. The prostate surgery had something to do with it as well, AAM told me. Watching […]
I thought I was through with the shock of seeing myself without my self-serving lens. But evidently not. And, anyways, the occasion is too rich in learning to pass by so soon. All of life is only about learning anyways. Learning who we really are. When I really get that, life becomes a sabbatical in […]
This week, we respond to Archangel Michael’s own request that we let him speak today on core issues, vasanas. The second part on current events has been posted separately here. AAM: …identify that it is a vasana coming up and simply go quiet. That is the key. Go into your heart, anchor in the heart […]
