I had no success accessing this vasana. (1) It’s the same root vasana of father hatred that I’ve been dealing with since I was a young child.
It shows how tenacious a vasana can be.
I finally invoked universal law and asked Archangel Michael and the Divine Mother to take the whole of it away, root and branch.
I have to say that I feel free of the grip of the vasana now (time will tell) but all my habits of behavior are still fashioned on it. So I’m still acting as if it’s alive and real even though it may be gone.
And my thoughts are the same. Again habitually.
Imagine my vasana as a debt. Michael and the Mother will have paid off my debt. But without changing my spending patterns I’ll run into debt again tomorrow.
So without reparenting myself in conjunction with being relieved of a karmic burden, without changing my habit patterns, I’ll simply feed the vasana again through force of habit.
Meanwhile, and simultaneously, I’m feeling a pull on me to emerge and keep emerging. (2) I’m feeling afraid to step out of my skin, so to speak, but I’m being drawn in that direction.
The one is a push and the other is a pull.
To combine the two: My life is at a standstill until I emerge from the shell, the vasana that is binding me, and allow expansion to occur.
(1) See “The Next Step for Me,”
(2) The Arcturians through Sue Lie, Archangel Michael and the Lord Arcturus through Linda Dillon have all asked me to take time out and allow inner capacities to emerge – the same inner capacities all angelic lightworkers have, which is most of us.