I’ve felt for a very long time that it’s unfortunate that we don’t have more widely disseminated approaches to everyday relationship conflict. Of course I’m not in a relationship so I’m ignorant of current breakthroughs in that field. I’m offering the analyses that cluster around the notion of “cycle of conflict” as a door in […]
Self-Servingness Permeates Everything
Mine, mine, mine, you fool! Credit: Business2community.com Judgment, the ego, and desire seem to go hand in hand. Judging another elevates me in my own sight. It calls the ego into action to do the elevating. Desire is also a call to action. The ego arises to fulfill the desire. If another stands in the […]
Introduction to the Constructed Self (Download)
Here comes a detailed look at the constructed self that we fashion to present and manage our image, to look good and sound right. The invitation is to come out from behind the image and be who we really are. Download On the Constructed Self here: https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/On-the-Constructed-Self-5.pdf Introduction to the Constructed Self What is the […]
One Extra Spoon: The Right/Wrong System
I’m going about the serious business of making literature prior to the Reval putting an end to that activity from me (I’ll be too busy). Moreover the Reval will call for quite another persona. The job(s) I’ll be doing will be way different than this, although Michael wants me to keep writing. (1) And they […]
I’m Ready for That
All the time the tug of war between Alliance and deep state goes on – and I do watch it, whether or not I have the time to post on it. At the same time, and all the while these days, there’s a constant flow of love happening just below the surface. Whenever I turn […]
I See It in Myself
This morning I observed myself as I acted mechanically, below awareness, and aggressively. The situation was mundane. I’ve been allowing my waste paper pile to grow rather than shredding it as we go along. It’s reached sizable proportions and I’ve come to a shred-it-now-or-never point. I’m having a real but crazy argument with myself and […]
What is Trauma? – Part 1/2
Dr. Gabor Mate’s early-childhood-trauma team are multiplying the material available on the subject. I’d like to comment on their ground-breaking work. They ask us to support “the expanding movement to create a more trauma-informed world.” I’m happy to do so. In Part 2, I post his announcement of his Talks on Trauma Series, Part 2. […]
What is Trauma? – Part 2/2
What I call vasanas, Dr. Gabor Mate calls early childhood trauma. Seeing the growing body of specialists he’s brought together over the years is heart-warming to someone who wants to see all our early childhood traumas lift. Here’s his announcement of new talks in his series and a reshowing of The Wisdom of Trauma. Talks […]
I Want My Happiness Back
Since seeing the two-handed script of my Mom and Dad arguing, I’ve been watching my moods, my inner chatter. (1) I’m seeing that the impact on me of watching their heart-breaking conflict, day in and day out, or whenever I ventured out of my room, (2) was way beyond what I’ve seen so far. For […]
Huge Commitment to the Work
Seeing the script I have playing – and the discoveries that it’s leading to – is like an earthquake in my life. (1) And it’s led to numerous aftershocks. It’s opened the door for me to complete the cycle of domestic abuse that occurred in our household. It’s led me to see the identity I […]
An Almost-Near Near-Death Experience
Now that my parents’ two-handed card game of arrogance and depression is up to awareness, I’ve been observing how often it operates in me. The number of times I wince in a day is large and that wincing is me imitating my Mother’s reactions to my Dad. I hate the wincing. I feel like I’ve […]
From Vasanas to Scripts
I recently had a breakthrough in my cleansing process. Up till now I’d been processing singular vasanas (or core issues) as they erupted. (1) A few days back, something different presented itself. I felt awful and there was no reason that I could see why I might feel that way. So I began to observe. […]
From God We Came; To God We Return
Time to return to preparation for Ascension. As an Ascension ethnographer, I’m only writing partly for our own culture and civilization. Many civilizations all over our universe are probably also ascending, perhaps even as we speak. Michael has mentioned other Ascensions in discussing my next assignment: Steve: When will I … have my original dimensionality […]
How the Process of Growth Work Goes
As the chaos swirls outside, the chaos swirls inside as well. In this article I process a residual feeling state. Doing this, I hope, allows me to do a better job in post-Reval roles. And of course every one I can dissolve frees me and elevates my space, which is a contribution to Ascension. It’s […]
Not Out of the Woods
I’ve been walking around triggering myself for a while now. And if I walk the trigger back, I find that I’m disappointed in myself (Mother). I’m disappointed because I reacted to some forgotten thought with irritation, anger, aggressiveness, or some negative attitude (Father). I have my Father and Mother endlessly arguing in my head. The […]