The little golden star, its brilliance lost, sees the golden Sun afar off.
I was looking for a quote on re-emergence when I came across a most remarkable article from 2011.
I had just “met” Archangel Michael four months earlier, which explains some of the quaint wording (eg., the “Spirit” I serve).
This is a supplementary discussion of my 1987 vision experience. It doesn’t replace the main discussion at the end of the book, The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment) (1) It discusses more the context than the content of the vision.
In a reading I requested from Archangel Michael, through Linda Dillon, on April 26, 2011, the Spirit whom I serve said something that surprised me:
“We do not ask you to veer away from being a writer but we want you to write what you feel moved to and it is also more dabbling into what you have thought of as the sacred truths.
“And people, humans, hybrids [Starseeds], and beyond, are prepared to receive those [writings] as well. In a fuller and perhaps may we say more profound way than previously. …
“… In the human element their hearts are yearning for more. So you are going to do more writing in that vein.” (2)
I expressed surprise because I’m not an enlightened being but the Boss said that nonetheless that’s what I’d feel drawn to.
And I confess that the desire to turn to spiritual topics is arising in me. There’s a desire to write about enlightenment, the design elements of the human being and life, the natural laws, the Trinity of God the Father, God the Mother, and God the Child.
I could have said God the All, since there is nothing that isn’t God. But nonetheless to create this lila or drama called life, God did, as far as I’m aware, step down His (Her, Its) powers in a mysterious way that is difficult for us to understand, to assume other roles in the play.
The very first thing I feel moved to do is to republish on a daily basis chapters from the book called The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment. (3) I feel a strong desire to begin by sharing something that tells us why life was created and a little bit about how it was designed. So let me say a word about that book.
Back in 1987, while I was driving my car, I had an experience which changed my life. I was in my doctoral years at the University of B.C., studying to be a group leader. I had been practicing listening therapy, the incredible impact that deep listening could have in the processing of major upsets. I had noticed that when a person was listened to for a very long time, they reached a point where the puzzle they were faced with became a picture.
I should add that I had also attended a rebirthing workshop in Seattle the previous weekend and had what rebirthers call a “full-breath release.” I can’t describe what that feels like. The breath, instead of being a country road, becomes an eight-lane highway. I felt altogether cleaned out and purified. I had broken through the “character armoring” or “pain body.” So I was in a remarkable space to begin with.
But a thought arose in my mind and I expressed it this way: “If our early life is a puzzle, which, when solved, becomes a picture, could it be that life itself was a puzzle and, if so, what’s the picture that life is?”
Back then, this question and what happened after was all marvellous to me. But now I see it as simply one act in the unfolding drama that our lives are. It was my time to have this information downloaded and I now see it was brought to me for a purpose. What occurred after was that everything turned black and I forgot that I was behind the wheel of a car.
For the next eight seconds, I was shown a living tableau, a 3D movie, that revealed the entire journey of an individual soul, through lifetime after lifetime – from God, as Jesus said, out into the world (that is, the Holy Spirit or Mother, mater, matter), and back to God again.
This experience was attended by bliss, which lasted three days and the bliss made knowing easy. (3) I won’t describe what I saw because I have in the conclusion to this book. (4) But I emerged knowing for certain, and I want to emphasize that certainty, like I could bank on it and risk my life on it, that enlightenment was the purpose for which each one of us is born, lives our lives, and “dies.”
That experience lasted eight seconds and, when it finished and the black disappeared, I saw that my car had not moved an inch. I was removed from time. I emerged knowing that it all works out in the final reel. I knew what the Trinity was. I knew what our task was. But none of this was explained in words. I saw only pictures. And it took twenty years of research to find the words that would explain what I saw that day.
Steve, 2026: In this article I did not state the purpose of life, as the vision revealed it to me. Let me do that now.
The purpose of life is for God to meet God in a moment of our enlightenment. For that meeting was all of this created. At the end of the vision, a voice inside said: “The purpose of life is enlightenment.” And, with that, the blackness disappeared and I was back behind the wheel of a car.
That explanation is contained in the dictionary, From Darkness Unto Light, (5) and I took a section of that dictionary and converted it into a book called The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment. I found that what I saw was known to countless sages through enlightenment. I discovered that life was designed, that that design was benevolent, that design elements operate on us to keep us moving towards our final rendezvous with destiny, and that God does not create sorrow and pain – we do.
I learned that enlightenment itself goes on so far that for us to call one stage of it that we reach in our human lives “complete” or “final” is humorous. None of our enlightenments can possibly be seen as any more “final” than a drive from Vancouver to Seattle can be called a drive through North America. There is a long, long way to go before we know and merge again with God.
I obtained a glimpse of how wonderful God is that so many ineffable, majestic views of Him (Her, It) cannot slake our thirst for Him or exhaust what there is to be known. Even Seraphim, who stand in the face of God, don’t know God completely. No one knows God but God. I’m not sure if I’m capable of communicating the eyes-wide-open amazement I felt upon realizing the vastness of God’s Being. To this day I can’t express it. One could exhaust one’s life trying to express that one thing.
This was not enlightenment. It was a vision, a teaching on enlightenment. (6)
Any knowledge of God, whether a peak experience, an enlightenment, or anything else, repays years and years of spiritual effort and struggle. I used to say to myself that one spiritual experience – a transformational moment, a vision – repaid a decade of labor. (And I know that a moment comes when we must cease struggling or exerting ourselves.) There came a time when I was having one spiritual experience after another and none of it slaked my thirst.
Here I am twenty-four [2026: thirty-seven] years after that experience, feeling as fresh with the topic as I did then, feeling no diminution of enthusiasm for an eight-second tableau. That’s because, when I get in touch with it, when I breathe into it, I’m breathing into a truth. And so I feel joy or bliss. (7)
After the vision, I insisted that my doctoral dissertation be about enlightenment and my thesis adviser refused. No other department of the university, including religious studies (!!), would agree to my doing one on such a topic. So I left the university.
I’m sure the university has changed by now. But I only want to know what God is now. I’ve been smitten by love’s arrow and I cannot see, hear or want anything else but God.
And so it has been for everyone who was ever contacted or been awakened by the Divine in any way. So powerful is the touch of God that it rearranges lives, smashes plans, and totally converts the soul. It divides father from son and mother from daughter. I am, we all are, God’s playthings, His puppets, His fools. And rage against it as we might, nothing can change that situation.
But let me not fly off into outer space, lost to everything. There is work to do to serve the One. Later comes the pension.
Footnotes
(1) See “Chapter 13. Epilogue” in The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/Purpose-of-Life-is-Enlightenment-6.pdf for the content of the vision, itself.
(2) Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, April 26, 2011. Four months after AAM and I “met.”
(3) Steve, 2026: I have often said of this experience that it was not enlightenment but a teaching about enlightenment. I now have to revise that opinion: One could not experience the degree of bliss that I was experiencing and not be experiencing enlightenment. I quote Michael:
Steve: The space that I call transformative love, what dimension is it?
AAM: It is the seventh dimension.
Steve: Then what dimension is bliss?
AAM: It is between eight and nine. (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Jan. 20, 2016.)
As wonderful as the experience of bliss was, it must have been toned down. Otherwise I’d be shining like a light bulb and I most assuredly am not.
(4) Available for free here: https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/Purpose-of-Life-is-Enlightenment-6.pdf
I’d now place the 1987 vision experience as the first of three fourth-chakra experiences, the other two being the 2015 heart opening and the 2018 sight of the Self at Xenia.
Our experiences don’t come with a manual or an explanatory note. Add to that the fact that most of my experiences have been toned down or truncated – most often, lacking bliss, which elevates one and makes realization possible. They were toned down so that, the Mother told me, I wouldn’t abandon my soul contract:
Divine Mother: Let me be very clear…. If you had seen the light as it actually is – yes, a million, billion suns – you would have simply departed. … We don’t mean die but you would have departed the life that you have designed – yes, with us – for yourself, for the service you are providing – you would have departed and simply said, ‘I do not need to do this. I will just simply sit in the bliss of love and good luck, everybody!’” (Divine Mother in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 26, 2018.)
(5) At https://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=From_Darkness_to_Light
(6) Steve 2026: Yaaaaahhhh, no. See footnote 3.
(7) More recently I’ve found that the vision is holographic. I can go into one part of it and work with it. An example would be that, in the vision, I saw the small gold star travel through a tube of lifetimes in matter. I found I could enter the tube and look before and after. What I saw looked like this:
Each cell was a lifetime in matter.