Up till now, I’ve been using the phrases “change of mind” and “change of vote” interchangeably. But the more I observe myself, the more I see it’s more useful to distinguish between them. I have to back up a bit to illustrate the difference between them. I remind you of how things appeared to me […]
I Must Have Done Something Right
I’m finding that, as we “push our edge” in the area of growth and spirituality over time, it gets easier and easier, more and more rewarding, and more and more secure. For decades I felt unlovable and unforgivable because I hated my father. It’s been a very long journey from there to here, where I […]
Resistance to Bliss
I took the day off just to relax. And in order to relax, I was pursuing my hobby-of-the-moment, which involves painting interestingly-shaped bottles with glitter paint. Let’s see where a picture is…. Here’s one. The red Tanqueray label reads “T.” But if you turn it upside down it reads “Q.” (We do what we can.) […]
Love Lift Us Up Where We Belong
On Global Love Day How fitting that Global Love Day should find me awash in love. In the exuberance I felt over thinking about what a change in my life has happened – with the passing of arthritis – I find myself immersed in the divine state (1) In the words of the song, love […]
Do I Really Want to Hurt?
I just got, from completing a huge vasana that traces back to events with my Mother, that, in the last analysis, no one else is responsible for and able to clean up the emotional damage I feel but me. Yes, I can get apologies. Anything external could happen. But no matter what happens externally – […]
The Strenuous Birth
In this latest chapter in my Ascension ethnography, having changed my vote from image management and hard bargaining to the divine qualities and their source – love – I find my life very disoriented. I know that I can expect resistance, in the form of vasanas (core issues, memories of early childhood trauma) going off. […]
Trading in the Old Paradigm of Right/Wrong – Part 1/3
The Mother said something at the beginning of the year that only becomes more relevant with the passage of time: “This sense that one is right, and one is wrong, that one is correct, and one is incorrect… I am bringing you, I am bringing this planet into the place of unity consciousness, into the […]
How the Process of Growth Work Goes
As the chaos swirls outside, the chaos swirls inside as well. In this article I process a residual feeling state. Doing this, I hope, allows me to do a better job in post-Reval roles. And of course every one I can dissolve frees me and elevates my space, which is a contribution to Ascension. It’s […]
There’s No Loss in Spiritual Evolution
I could say that there’s no loss in spiritual evolution. I could also say that there’s total loss. Both are true. I find that life gets better and better the deeper into the mystery of ourselves we go. In that sense, there’s no loss in forging ahead. At the same time one progressively loses worries, […]
Not Out of the Woods
I’ve been walking around triggering myself for a while now. And if I walk the trigger back, I find that I’m disappointed in myself (Mother). I’m disappointed because I reacted to some forgotten thought with irritation, anger, aggressiveness, or some negative attitude (Father). I have my Father and Mother endlessly arguing in my head. The […]
The Lord Arcturus: You Have the Same Answers Within Yourself
I had a reading a short time back with the Lord Arcturus through the kindness of Marilyn Raffaele . As an Arcturian, I serve him, as well as Archangel Michael. I’m most grateful to Marilyn. He said so many useful things that I’m still digesting it paragraph by paragraph. One thing he said keeps rattling […]
If Wisdom Prevails
Variations on the phrase “feeling good” receive different receptions. A “feel good” movie is one that sets out to elevate our feelings, but there’s the added implication that it has no other redeeming feature. The words “superficial” and “feel good” often go together. “Feeling good” is often viewed as a way of closing down further […]
The Destination is Worth the Rigor
When I think of Ascension as a journey up a mountain, I weep. Because for me, that’s how it’s seemed. I could have said pulling myself out of a swamp. Or crossing a desert. These are just images, but I feel so tired looking at the journey from this vantage point. It’s been a long […]
Divine Mother through Linda Dillon: Density is Unloving Emotion
Wow, is this passage from the Divine Mother ever timely for me, transitioning from hostility to harmony as I am. The Mother says density is unloving emotions. Period. And, if we don’t have time to learn how to extricate ourselves from the density we’ve created, she counsels us to simply turn to her and ask: […]
Bringing Heaven to Earth
For me, the problem doesn’t lie with “isms” – fascism, communism, socialism, liberalism, conservatism, etc. In my view, it lies with leaving the center and swinging out onto the extremes. And, believe me, I do it too. The interesting thing about the situation is that, when one is out on the extremes, it’s so noisy […]