I was going through wave after wave of anger, experiencing it through to completion now that the vasana of father hatred was at last up. I resolved to be angry for as long as it took for the light to go on. And the light went on when I asked myself: What is the cost […]
Whose Shepherd I am
So far the vasana with my Dad has manifested, as it did in 1986, as unbridled anger. But I seem to have left the anger phase now, and, even as the last fumes of father hatred dissipate, I’m beset by feelings of fear. This is a crystal-clear demonstration that anger sits on top of fear. […]
Letting Vasanas Arise
Heck, I’m not going to let a rich occasion like this get away from me without exploring it. In a similar situation, most company heads would deny that anything’s wrong and spin the news. But vasanas (or core issues) are my field of specialization. No, sir. Let’s dig in. The events of the last few […]
Resolving the Dissonance: Finding Love for the Service-to-Self Polarized
On April 17th, 2020, Magenta Pixie posted a video outlining 3 steps necessary to release ourselves from the dark agenda as we move into unity consciousness 1) Learn about, and acknowledge, the abuses that have taken place and integrate the visceral and emotional reactions that will likely manifest. 2) Reclaim our rightful place as universal […]
What is “Sharing” for Me?
I created a subgroup in the Forum on “Sharing.” (1) Why did I do that? What is the draw in “sharing” for me? I’ll tell you but please keep in mind that I’m aware, as a Sociology grad student of small groups, that it doesn’t work to force a vision on a group. I’m simply […]
Archangel Michael: Introduction to Vasanas
A friend sent me a 2017 article yesterday about a Zen master who ventured into sexual impropriety in 2011 and stepped down as a consequence. (1) Why do even advanced spiritual teachers succumb to vasanas or core issues such as this one appears to have? The answer is because vasanas don’t disappear forever until Sahaja […]
Archangel Michael: What You Yearn for and Think You Can’t Have
It was the end of November. I was back from the hospital with railway tracks up my chest and down my leg, feeling unattractive and forlorn. And Christmas was coming. Thinking of that and how most people would be caught up in family celebrations, I was feeling alone, lonely, and dismayed. I asked for his […]
The Grand Motif
I notice that, as I go down through my vasanas or core issues, I reach a place where I can almost draw back and see the bigger picture. For instance, I’ve been reviewing my life and seeing how everything I did fits in with or has prepared me for what I’m doing now. History, academia, […]
The Alternative to Taking It Out on Someone
My experience of processing a vasana (1) is very much deeper than it was even a year ago. I’m experiencing one right now that is so deep, that by rights I should simply remain with the experience – not write – thanking my stars that it’s come up. But my mission is to share it. […]
Peeling an Onion
I continue with my Ascension ethnography. One of the things I’m noticeing is that, when I considered any matter from the perspective of being a CEO of a large corporation, in the past, I always felt mixed emotions. My mind was divided. I had reservations. I was a house divided against itself. We have many […]
Will the Play Go On if We Don’t Watch? Part 1/3
While we’re still here and having to feed ourselves and pay bills, we actually do need to pay a certain amount of attention to what’s happening on the World Stage. Taking it to a personal level, what we resist persists. When we take Human form in 3rd density, personal wounding happens as a matter of […]
The ABCs of Psychological Trauma
I call the source of trauma vasanas; Linda calls them core issues; these folks call them trauma. The name doesn’t matter. But all are agreed that these are the main obstacle to our happiness. The ABCs of Psychological Trauma Stillness in the Storm, 07/15/20 httpss://stillnessinthestorm.com/2019/07/the-abcs-of-psychological-trauma/ Although psychological trauma doesn’t affect everyone in the same way, […]
Now or Never
I continue to focus my attention on how I am with other people, especially in conflict. I still spark and turn the other person into the enemy. I go out of relationship with them and break the connection over issues that arise. Recently Fedex lost a parcel of mine and I could have used the […]
On Looking Like a Fool … and Getting It
Reposted from April 2011. I’ve said on a number of occasions that, as far as I’m concerned, cleaning up our unfinished business is what we need to be doing these days and that one cannot clean up unfinished business unless it’s present. One cannot access an upset that’s not happening in the moment. So when […]
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