(Concluded from Part 2, yesterday.) Some time ago, the historian in me assigned myself the task of discovering the real reasons behind World War II. I watched a large number of documentaries. Those videos of courage in the face of fire and persistence through adversity are now arising in my mind and inspiring me. I […]
I See It in Myself
This morning I observed myself as I acted mechanically, below awareness, and aggressively. The situation was mundane. I’ve been allowing my waste paper pile to grow rather than shredding it as we go along. It’s reached sizable proportions and I’ve come to a shred-it-now-or-never point. I’m having a real but crazy argument with myself and […]
What is Trauma? – Part 1/2
Dr. Gabor Mate’s early-childhood-trauma team are multiplying the material available on the subject. I’d like to comment on their ground-breaking work. They ask us to support “the expanding movement to create a more trauma-informed world.” I’m happy to do so. In Part 2, I post his announcement of his Talks on Trauma Series, Part 2. […]
What is Trauma? – Part 2/2
What I call vasanas, Dr. Gabor Mate calls early childhood trauma. Seeing the growing body of specialists he’s brought together over the years is heart-warming to someone who wants to see all our early childhood traumas lift. Here’s his announcement of new talks in his series and a reshowing of The Wisdom of Trauma. Talks […]
I Want My Happiness Back
Since seeing the two-handed script of my Mom and Dad arguing, I’ve been watching my moods, my inner chatter. (1) I’m seeing that the impact on me of watching their heart-breaking conflict, day in and day out, or whenever I ventured out of my room, (2) was way beyond what I’ve seen so far. For […]
Huge Commitment to the Work
Seeing the script I have playing – and the discoveries that it’s leading to – is like an earthquake in my life. (1) And it’s led to numerous aftershocks. It’s opened the door for me to complete the cycle of domestic abuse that occurred in our household. It’s led me to see the identity I […]
An Almost-Near Near-Death Experience
Now that my parents’ two-handed card game of arrogance and depression is up to awareness, I’ve been observing how often it operates in me. The number of times I wince in a day is large and that wincing is me imitating my Mother’s reactions to my Dad. I hate the wincing. I feel like I’ve […]
From Vasanas to Scripts
I recently had a breakthrough in my cleansing process. Up till now I’d been processing singular vasanas (or core issues) as they erupted. (1) A few days back, something different presented itself. I felt awful and there was no reason that I could see why I might feel that way. So I began to observe. […]
From God We Came; To God We Return
Time to return to preparation for Ascension. As an Ascension ethnographer, I’m only writing partly for our own culture and civilization. Many civilizations all over our universe are probably also ascending, perhaps even as we speak. Michael has mentioned other Ascensions in discussing my next assignment: Steve: When will I … have my original dimensionality […]
How the Process of Growth Work Goes
As the chaos swirls outside, the chaos swirls inside as well. In this article I process a residual feeling state. Doing this, I hope, allows me to do a better job in post-Reval roles. And of course every one I can dissolve frees me and elevates my space, which is a contribution to Ascension. It’s […]
Drinking the Poison, Hoping They’ll Die – Part 2/2
(Concluded from Part 1, yesterday.) I had such a classic example of old programming going off this morning, exactly as I was working on this article. I have to relate it here. A friend phoned earlyish in the morning and asked me a favor which was at the limits of inconvenience. I said “no,” but […]
Drinking the Poison, Hoping They’ll Die – Part 1/2
I’d like to make a distinction between objective fact and subjective interpretation. The worst I ever did was steal a chocolate bar. OK, a tin of rock candy too. For both of which I was caught and disciplined. That’s an objective fact. Apart from those cries for help (my father was hitting my mother), I […]
Gabor Mate’s The Wisdom of Trauma Free Viewing till June 20
Gabor Maté’s presentation in The Wisdom of Trauma is one of the best approaches to the healing of early childhood trauma, which results in the creation of vasanas or core issues, that I’ve seen. I encourage anyone in this field to have a watch, free. We’re now re-broadcasting the world movie premiere of The Wisdom […]
Come Out! Come Out! Whoever You Are
If I have it all already inside me, if all of this is a process of remembering, if the only obstacle is what I put in my own way, then come out! Come out! Whoever you are! I will stop blocking your way. I am no longer afraid of standing here as I am. I […]
Going Down or Coming Up, Vasanas Feel the Same (Repost)
I’d like to repost this article from 2014 because it concerns an important facet of the process of clearing vasanas or core issues. (1) Oftentimes when people are clearing vasanas, they say that they feel so bad that they don’t want to continue. You may feel bad. You may even feel as bad as you […]