I was sharing in Kathleen’s meditation group the other night that I’ve been “processing” (read: beating up on) my Dad for the past ten years and I still feel resentful and vengeful. Every History or Sociology class I taught reified into my Father. Every villain I ever fought became my Father. I’ve grown up fighting […]
Do I Really Want to Hurt?
I just got, from completing a huge vasana that traces back to events with my Mother, that, in the last analysis, no one else is responsible for and able to clean up the emotional damage I feel but me. Yes, I can get apologies. Anything external could happen. But no matter what happens externally – […]
How Do We Deepen Our Experience? – Part 2/2
(Concluded from Part 1, above.) I wanted to go deeper into my observation of the still space when suddenly a fear arose. I said to myself: If I go deeper, I invite a deep spiritual experience. Will that interfere with my work? The mere appearance of fear was enough of an obstacle to halt the […]
Experiencing Anger … for a Change
For the first time in memory, I got angry this evening and, instead of hurling allegations at another, who after all “made me mad,” instead of festering with it, instead of revenging myself on the other person, I opened to the experience of it. It turned out to be a feeling just like any other. […]
I Don’t Need Props, Lines, and Costumes to Be Me
I can now see counterproductive behavior patterns as they arise. Before I committed to the divine qualities, they’d arise largely invisibly. That was because I approved of them. Now they work against my new commitment and so are in conflict with me. When they arise now and seek my attention, I don’t agree to give […]
Not Another Lifetime of Perpetual Reactivity and Unrealized Potential
Having committed to the divine qualities, as a way of anchoring myself in them, what next confronts me are the reaction patterns that vasanas (core issues, early childhood trauma) give rise to. Up till now, I’ve been mainly concerned with my vasanas, and not with the automatic reaction patterns they give rise to. Commitment does […]
Finding Blame is like Making War on a Person
Gotcha! All our love goes out to the families of the murdered children in Robb Elementary School in Uvalde, Texas. I’m quite serious about needing to clean up as many of my vasanas as I can and the reaction patterns they give rise to, before the Reval. I watched a biography of Hitler the other […]
Archangel Gabriel through Shelley Young ~ Boundary Work Two-fer
April 21, 2022, trinityesoterics.com https://tinyurl.com/yeyt72wp We realize that adjusting boundaries can seem daunting, especially if they’ve been in an unhealthy pattern for a long time. But healthy boundaries are essential for helping you, and everyone around you, meet their highest potentials. That is exactly why they are coming up for reexamination for so many of […]
The Global Landscape will be Different
I’m rapidly coming to the conclusion that the wisest course of action for us, who know what the Mother’s Plan for this time period is, is to postpone heavy discussions with family and friends over vaccine and political issues. Whenever a vaccine or political disagreement arises these days, we seem to watch families split up […]
Calming Down, Looking Back
I can’t say that calm has entirely returned. I still feel shell-shocked and traumatized by everything that’s happened. But I’m more interested in discussing some of the growth and learning. The other things will diminish and fade out of memory, with me quicker than with many others! I’ve been cut down to size in some […]
Whatever Works
Download a copy of How to Process a Number One Upset here: https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/10/How-to-Process-a-Number-One-Upset-R13.pdf. Because there are unresolved, ongoing security risks, this vasana, most likely, will not subside the way others have. One side of me wants it to subside. The other side is asking me to stay awake to it because of the risks involved. […]
Until the Volcano Settles Down
I’m posting a copy of How to Process a Number One Upset ahead of time because I believe Oct. 2 could see dramatic events and I want this available before, say, the Internet shuts down. Download a copy of How to Process a Number One Upset here: https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/10/How-to-Process-a-Number-One-Upset-R13.pdf. Remind me never to say a vasana […]
Predictably, Upsets are on the Way
This series has been collected into a book, below. I post it one day earlier than I’d planned because Oct. 1 could see media and devices shut down. Probably not (more disinformation) but I don’t want to take the chance that it will be and you won’t have the advantage of downloading this book. The […]
In My Opinion, It’s Essential
Sept. 28, 2021 This blog was started twelve years ago today – first as the 2012 Scenario and next as the Golden Age of Gaia. All this time it has survived by your generosity alone – no ads, no prices for books. We bow in gratitude to you. The blog began out of the inner […]
Compassionate Inquiry: Dr. Gabor Mate on Defusing Emotional Triggers
Gabor is doing cutting-edge work on bringing the treatment of early childhood trauma (vasanas) into the public spotlight. I wholeheartedly support him in his efforts. What he’s talking about here should have increased relevance to us because we know announcements are coming that are going to rock us (even knowledgeable lightworkers). What Gabor is discussing […]