Since seeing the two-handed script of my Mom and Dad arguing, I’ve been watching my moods, my inner chatter. (1) I’m seeing that the impact on me of watching their heart-breaking conflict, day in and day out, or whenever I ventured out of my room, (2) was way beyond what I’ve seen so far. For […]
Huge Commitment to the Work
Seeing the script I have playing – and the discoveries that it’s leading to – is like an earthquake in my life. (1) And it’s led to numerous aftershocks. It’s opened the door for me to complete the cycle of domestic abuse that occurred in our household. It’s led me to see the identity I […]
Drinking the Poison, Hoping They’ll Die – Part 2/2
(Concluded from Part 1, yesterday.) I had such a classic example of old programming going off this morning, exactly as I was working on this article. I have to relate it here. A friend phoned earlyish in the morning and asked me a favor which was at the limits of inconvenience. I said “no,” but […]
Drinking the Poison, Hoping They’ll Die – Part 1/2
I’d like to make a distinction between objective fact and subjective interpretation. The worst I ever did was steal a chocolate bar. OK, a tin of rock candy too. For both of which I was caught and disciplined. That’s an objective fact. Apart from those cries for help (my father was hitting my mother), I […]
The Center is Where I Need to Make My Home
Two of the things that concern me about life after the Reval have to do with our impact on other people; specifically, the employees of our foundations. Let me paint a scenario in which the two factors play. We’re now the head of a large and wealthy humanitarian foundation. Several waves of the prosperity program […]
The Worst Possible Virus: The Inner Hitler
When tension increases, awareness decreases. The converse should also be true: When tension decreases, (1) awareness should increase. And so, in the midst of chaos, my awareness appears to be increasing. Having dropped Constant Comment, weathered the eruption of Humiliation that followed, (pant, pant) I notice that I have reached a place of … well, […]