I notice that, as I go down through my vasanas or core issues, I reach a place where I can almost draw back and see the bigger picture. For instance, I’ve been reviewing my life and seeing how everything I did fits in with or has prepared me for what I’m doing now. History, academia, […]
A Little More to Go
I hope my passing publicly through this redefinition phase is useful to you. It is to me. There’s still a little more to go. I noticed this evening that, in redefining myself, I only hurt if I threatened a self-image – such as by a loss of face, a loss of position, a loss of […]
Allowing Myself to Feel
I continue to allow myself to feel what arises, the residue of a vasana or core issue reactivated. As long-time readers know, I regard the re-activation of a vasana as a good thing. It’s only then that we can re-experience and complete the incomplete feelings at the heart of it. (1) Mostly we don’t share […]
Claiming Our Divine Authority: What Will It Take? -Part 2/2
(Concluded from Part 1, yesterday.) I also see barriers to the resistance falling away. Here’s one. I think I have to say to someone who challenges me on authority: “I speak on my own divine authority.” No, I don’t. “I speak on my own authority.” To say “on my divine authority” is to invite controversy. […]
Claiming Our Divine Authority: What Will It Take? -Part 1/2
I’m beginning to see the tie-in between divine qualities, states of consciousness, and contexts. They’re different words pointing at the same thing. I’ve experienced mastery, abundance, and peace, which are divine qualities, as states of consciousness. They were expansive, transformative – certainly higher states than ordinary consciousness. Werner Erhard calls the same phenomenon a “context,” […]
I’m a Believer
Here it is a beautiful sunny Sunday. I’m sitting here saying to myself, you should go outside. I don’t want to go outside. I’m lying here waiting. But for what? After looking and looking, what I see inside is that I’m wanting to feel a certain way. That’s what I’m looking for. Not just being […]
Peeling an Onion
I continue with my Ascension ethnography. One of the things I’m noticeing is that, when I considered any matter from the perspective of being a CEO of a large corporation, in the past, I always felt mixed emotions. My mind was divided. I had reservations. I was a house divided against itself. We have many […]
Life is Less a Courtroom and More a Gymnasium
I’m seeing that a happy life requires us to eliminate our patterns that don’t work and refuse from then on to harm ourselves or other people. As we peel back the layers of the onion, we uncover our basic happiness and innocence, always there but hidden. That’s why the love in our hearts is so […]
Starting Over: Finding a Way to Forgive Ourselves
I have many reasons for wanting to take the Federation of Light up on its invitation to forgive in a general way, to totally forgive, to forgive everything. And, by the way, I have to acknowledge that Kathleen was saying this some time ago. I was not ready. One of the reasons is that resenting […]
Layers of the Onion
I’m learning so much from exploring this commanding attitude of taking charge. A few months ago, will reasserted itself in the Humpty Dumpty Man. Now he’s taking charge. I see this as part of a radical reconstruction of my self. The prostate surgery had something to do with it as well, AAM told me. Watching […]
Still Shaken but Emerging
I thought I was through with the shock of seeing myself without my self-serving lens. But evidently not. And, anyways, the occasion is too rich in learning to pass by so soon. All of life is only about learning anyways. Learning who we really are. When I really get that, life becomes a sabbatical in […]