I got what’s happening right now. It’s very embarrassing to talk about it but this is my job. The pummeling doesn’t stop. One crisis after another, large or small. The emotional truth is that whatever I turn my hand to right now does not work. So “it feels like” I’m carrying a a large rock […]
Even a Bad Day can be Rich in Understandings
I’m not sure I can say “all martial arts exercises,” but I can say “all karate exercises” begin with a defensive move, never an offensive move. Always with a block, never with a kick or punch. Besides not being taught how to attack, a karate student is taught only to use the minimum force needed […]
Time to Grow Up
Your email saying when I talk about myself, it’s either the same for you or backlights how you are is encouraging to me. Thank you for that. Sometimes, it really is like going out on the skinny branches. Exhilarating but risky. So I do need encouragement. In the growth movement, what I’m saying to you […]
The Strenuous Birth
In this latest chapter in my Ascension ethnography, having changed my vote from image management and hard bargaining to the divine qualities and their source – love – I find my life very disoriented. I know that I can expect resistance, in the form of vasanas (core issues, memories of early childhood trauma) going off. […]
Acuity of Awareness Increasing
I just came across this passage from a 2012 reading, two days after writing this article, which rang such a bell for me in light of what’s discussed here: “Another measure, my beloved ones, is to do with your mental acuity, including interest in things of the mental body – and, dear Steve, you have […]
If Wisdom Prevails
Variations on the phrase “feeling good” receive different receptions. A “feel good” movie is one that sets out to elevate our feelings, but there’s the added implication that it has no other redeeming feature. The words “superficial” and “feel good” often go together. “Feeling good” is often viewed as a way of closing down further […]
Val: I Too Wake up to an “Unsatisfying Emotional Baseline”
Writer’s Corner I so much enjoyed Valerie’s description of her grumpy side and recent ‘departure from form.’ Hi Steve, thank you for your very kind email and virtual hug! I loved it. Just a bit of a story and a few comments as follow up: Steve recently described the feeling of an ‘unsatisfying emotional baseline.’ […]
Healing the Dissociative Split
I’m always pleasantly surprised when someone writes in and says that troll article really resonated with me; I don’t think I’d call mine a troll, but waking up to a low emotional baseline I can relate to. Heavens, I write awareness/stream of consciousness in the hope beyond hope that it resonates with others and helps […]
Speak of a Beachhead
Before thinking about bringing peace to the world, we may need to bring peace to ourselves. This article is part of that process for me. I notice I’m not creating as much residue, as much debris in my wake as I used to. I’m still dropping a royal clanger every now and then, but not […]
Thank You to the Troll Under the Bridge … and Goodbye
I’ve reached the end of the road with an act of mine, a racket, a number. I’ve processed this number before. I’m processing it now at a much deeper level. Its presenting sign is that I wake up in the morning and I’m not cheerful. Nothing has happened that I be anything but cheerful, but […]
Energy Went from Lethargy to Pizzazz
Since I had the spiritual healing that I mentioned earlier, (1) the quality of my experience has changed quite perceptibly. For as long as it lasts, I feel lighter, more fluid, more cheerful. I have much less fear. I feel clearer, more stable, better anchored in myself. My energy level went from lethargy to pizzazz […]