Whenever I feel guilt or shame or dismay, I can say with certainty that my Wounded Child is in the driver’s seat. I can say this with certainty because of what I saw and felt in a meditation I did at Xenia Retreat Center on Sept. 18, 2018. I saw the Self in the depths […]
What We Call Ascension
My original assignment was to go up with everyone else, passing from Ascension milestone to Ascension milestone – and write about it. I regard what I write as an Ascension ethnography, warts and all, to be read by other civilizations planning their own Ascensions. As Sanat suggested back in 2011: “What takes place here, of […]
What Awaits Us
In the course of other research, I came across this discussion with Archangel Michael from late 2017. It answers my question, what lies beyond the planetary heart opening, which is happening gradually as we speak? His reply was very informative. I’m not completely sure if he was talking to me only or to all of […]
Personality and Behavior
Everything about me that could be called a “personality” or a “character” I create. And I have to create it again and again, daily, hourly, because if I don’t create it, to all effects, it isn’t there. There are things that I was emphasizing yesterday which I’m not emphasizing today. This is a good time […]
The Role of the Celestials in Our Enlightenment – Part 2/2
(Concluded from Part 1, yesterday.) Let me now give you three examples of celestial mediation in my own spiritual experiences. These were generally toned down so that I would remain in service as a communicator, staying in synch with my readers. It isn’t the fact that they were toned down that I’m pointing at; it’s […]
Loving the Present Moment
I have two radically-different sides of myself. One side lives always looking to the next moment for pleasure and excitement. It never sinks into the experience itself but always looks for what’s next. First I’ll walk around the park; then I’ll go shopping; then I’ll research; then I’ll write an article. I feel happy at […]
Reconstructing the Deconstructed Self
Eric Berne’s ego states are particularly helpful in looking at the operation I’m doing on myself. What Berne meant by “ego state,” I think, would be the same as what we mean by “states of consciousness.” “Ego’” here just means “I.” If I can adapt his terms, I grew up with a bad-parent ego state […]
In Quiet and Stillness
This transition that I’m going through continues. It’s like a snowball – decades of slow work on vasanas and now gathering speed. I spent nearly six decades healing dissociation. Now I’m using a dissociative fantasy to provide leadership to myself, to assume command over myself. I’m imagining that “I” am an older brother (Big Steve) […]
I’m My Own Man
I can see that I’m on a journey of recovery, as are so many of us. The lessons of the journey seem to be cumulative. The experience of gentleness recently opened a new door of experience for me but it was also the latest in many lessons over time that were showing me the tremendous […]
Transcending the Invalidation Monster
I felt wretched today – all my friends are away at the moment. I felt lonely, sad, forlorn. Then I wrote a stimulating article and found myself at the end of it saying “Yes!” I immediately saw that what was present in the situation as it existed at the moment was unconscious invalidation (Happy? “Not […]
Inside a Heart Opening
We have events pending in Abundance (the Reval), Disclosure (the Delegations), and Ascension (the planetary heart opening). This article is on heart openings. I was writing another article and wanted to locate a particular quote from Archangel Michael, in which he discussed the reasons why my situation attracted a heart opening on March 13, 2015. […]
Transformative Gentleness
I observe myself in a depressed state. I simply feel flat. There’s nothing objectionable about it necessarily. It’s lower than I like to go however. I have it rigged up that this is an unpleasant space, an idea that triggers the mind into grumbling and becoming defensive. No thought involved. All automatic, vasana-driven behavior. When […]
Experiencing and Realizing the Ego
As a result of the vision I had in 1987 (1), it’s an article of faith with me that from the moment we emerge from the One as a point of Light until the moment we merge in It again, we are in school. We’re in school to learn our true identity, which we forgot […]
Fantastic Voyage
We invite you most lovingly to make a monthly or one-time donation to the expenses of the team. See below for details. Vasanas go deep, deep, deep. Nevertheless, the Self is to be found in a deeper recess of the heart than the vasanas. I use the term “seat of the soul” as its location, […]
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