Toward a World that Works for Everyone
Just as God enjoys the world through the senses of every one of us, so do I – who, like you, am that very God – enjoy the world through anything I become aware of. When I identify with the mind, I use it to create through. When I identify and operate as the ego, […]
As I go about observing my responses to things, seeing where I flip into potential harmfulness … OK, attack mode … I see that I cannot observe a vow to be harmless and yet engage in drama. The two are irreconcilable. They cannot both exist in the same space. A number of games in Eric […]
Concluded from Part 1, above.) I’m not becoming a zealot or a purist. (Doesn’t this sound like a juggling act?) I’m convinced that all this is happening because of three things: (1) The impact of the rising energies, (2) the approach of major events, and (3) the impact of my knowledge of future responsibilities – […]
I continue to focus my attention on how I am with other people, especially in conflict. I still spark and turn the other person into the enemy. I go out of relationship with them and break the connection over issues that arise. Recently Fedex lost a parcel of mine and I could have used the […]
I personally don’t have as much time to process vasanas these days as I did a few years ago. I have to make room for speedier measures. And so today I just dug in and asked myself: What is the chief mischief maker? Never mind beating around the bush. Let’s get to the heart of […]
The Arcturians asked us to master every thought and feeling. I’d like to talk about mastering feelings for a moment. I watch myself and I see myself talking about things in a way that reflects how I feel – gloomy, depressed, elevated, happy. I “come from” the context of the feeling I’m presently experiencing. If […]
The combination of processing my vasanas, patterns, and interests and exporting these gains to the outside (by interacting with people rather than fleeing from them) is revealing things to me. For instance, this morning, I re-connected with my happy self. I was about to shave and I remembered my Christmas as a shaving-cream Santa. In […]
In the course of reparenting myself, I’ve now reached the point of imagining myself as having three sides (that I want to work with). I think of them as a triumvirate. The first is Big Steve, my Adult consciousness. The second is Little Steve, my natural, pure, and innocent Child consciousness. And the third is […]
I’m going through a ridiculous dispute with PayPal. Clearly I’m reactivated. This is therefore a rant. They put a limitation on my account, which was cleared up – except for one thing. They needed documents to establish my identity. I furnished them with lots of documents, but there was a catch. All my official identity […]
Eric Berne’s ego states are particularly helpful in looking at the operation I’m doing on myself. What Berne meant by “ego state,” I think, would be the same as what we mean by “states of consciousness.” “Ego’” here just means “I.” If I can adapt his terms, I grew up with a bad-parent ego state […]
As I reparent myself and make my transition from sad … and mad … to glad, my sensitivity to my feelings increases. I become more aware of feelings that would have just been my “normal” back then. I was one compacted, compounded person. At the same time, I’ve been looking through the scrapbook Dad prepared […]
This transition that I’m going through continues. It’s like a snowball – decades of slow work on vasanas and now gathering speed. I spent nearly six decades healing dissociation. Now I’m using a dissociative fantasy to provide leadership to myself, to assume command over myself. I’m imagining that “I” am an older brother (Big Steve) […]
I’m learning so much from exploring this commanding attitude of taking charge. A few months ago, will reasserted itself in the Humpty Dumpty Man. Now he’s taking charge. I see this as part of a radical reconstruction of my self. The prostate surgery had something to do with it as well, AAM told me. Watching […]
