Recently, I was told about an “Iboga Retreat” in Costa Rica.
Iboga is a root medicine native to Central West Africa used by the Bwiti people for thousands of years.
I then went looking on the Internet and found an account of “John’s” experience at a similar retreat.
Just to be very clear, neither the Golden Age of Gaia nor I are endorsing retreats such as these. That isn’t why we post John’s experience.
We post it because we were fascinated to learn about the inner balance that was achieved.
I know that realizations like his are also accessible through a consistent practice of meditation and heart listening, which is more what we recommend.
Below, is John’s video testimonial about his experience and, below that, a transcription of his account (from 3:33, onwards):
“I had internalized some traumatic experiences throughout my life which had become a part of me, and there was a lot of pain that I held onto.
“When I saw my soul, I saw that none of that was real; that that was the surface, and underneath, my true self was untouched by any of that, as pure and beautiful and as full of Love as the first day I was created, and I’m still in there.
“That was incredible to see.
“It was a game-changer basically.
“You can’t get upset any more after having seen this truth about my self because life is hard, but they are just small hurts.
“Underneath, as I was able to see, I’m untouched.
“So that in itself was quite freeing, and the message that my soul had for me was also quite incredible — it was that I needed to forgive my self — and have compassion for my self.
“It was incredibly clear.
“It was sort of an image, but it was more so an undeniable inner knowing under the influence of iboga, I was able to tap into.
“When you see something so clearly and there’s a simple thing you can do — forgive my self — that’s what I did.
“I believe it was Einstein who said, ‘Big truth will always be something simple and beautiful’ and that was how I experienced this one.
“So I looked inside and I let go of it.
“I let go of all my unforgiveness and made room for compassion with my self.
“It was easy to do — seeing that that was all I needed to do — and incredibly freeing.
“Instantly I felt years and years of emotional abuse, mostly from my self, vanish, like turn into a clear blue sky with no clouds left in it.
“I felt lighter, especially up around my chest and my heart area, where most of my life it felt heavy and constricted, full of things that I had held onto, pain that was not fully transformed.
“This all vanished with a simple act of looking inside and being very earnest about forgiving my self — and having compassion with my self — and learning to really trust my self again for the first time since I was a kid.
“Aside from that, I also had a back issue, some pretty serious back pain for years and years, and that had pretty much vanished, as well.
“I felt that that was tied in and connected to the unresolved hurt inside of me, and when that was let go of, the pain was let go of, too.
“When you think about it, it makes a lot of sense.
“When there is a lot of pain you are constricted, and things aren’t moving properly, so the pain was 99% gone.
“I was able to stand up perfectly straight, and feel good for the first time in a very long time, and even today it still feels good, the pain is still gone.”
Given my interest in meditation and the information I have received from guidance, I was pleasantly surprised to hear that forgiveness and compassion were the same answers the person I talked to received (then also supported by John, above).
The original person I talked to said that he saw there is absolutely nothing/no one to blame when we experience trauma, that we make the blame and shame up with thoughts/beliefs in our mind.
These thoughts/beliefs are a human creation, not of love — Archangel Michael has said this to me, as well — and for us to balance, we need to eliminate them.
(Continued in Part 2 tomorrow with Archangel Michael’s wisdom.)