Credit: Attitude is Everything
Remaining aware of my issues, patterns, and interests, with my adult in the driver’s seat and me, the observer, in overall command, I seem able, if I wish, to remain fairly balanced, fairly “normal.”
Part of the Arcturians’ challenge may have been met. (1)
I may even soon be ready to offer my natural, innocent, and pure child a role.
All of this is overlooking the impact of the energies being beamed to us. What’s occurring may be entirely due to them. I don’t know.
All I can work with is what I see and feel in myself.
Besides, how many sources have recommended to us that we let go of the external world and concentrate on the internal?
That is certainly what I’m doing.
What paths might we follow?
I’m not qualified to make recommendations. I can only say what I’m doing.
And that is to follow the awareness path. In this instance, I breathe bliss up on the inbreath and breath it out to the world on the outbreath.
I dive deep into my heart with my awareness. And I endeavor as much as possible to bring whatever I gain internally into the outside world, contributing it in an appropriate way.
If this balance lasts, what it’d mean is that the automatic side of myself, created in trauma and drama, would to some unknown extent have been released.
I won’t any longer be run by my issues (or vasanas), patterns, or interests. Somehow … I think it best to wait a while to see whether the change is lasting and complete.
Would that be the end of it?
I actually don’t think we get rid of our vasanas completly until after Sahaja Samadhi. Or at least that’s the verdict of Ramana Maharshi. (2) They remain like mosquitoes on our camping trip, buzzing around us.
I do know that there’s a next stage however. That would be to take what has been learned from my internal reparenting and to introduce it into my relationships from others.
That would be to shift my behavior with others from being a dejected, altogether unpleasant character (OK, an old grump) or an ungrounded exuberant character (the dissociation of Humpty Dumpty again) to being a balanced and welcomed citizen of the world.
A lot of that may involve re-learning the skills that the natural, pure and innocent child knows.
I have no idea what else it’d require, but I’d bring the same tools of the awareness path to it.
I’ve lived very few lives on Earth, apparently, compared to many of my colleagues. A friend recently said he didn’t think I knew how to live an Earth life.
That may be true and it may be why I’m needing to go through the reconstruction of my constructed self one step at a time.
Footnotes
(1) “Original Challenge from the Arcturians,” June 2, 2019, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2019/06/02/original-challenge-from-the-arcturians/
(2) “In Kevala Nirvikalpa Samadhi [Brahmajnana, seventh-chakra enlightenment] one is not free from vasanas and does not, therefore, attain mukti.
Only after the samskaras have been destroyed can one attain salvation.
D: When can one practice Sahaja Samadhi?
B: Even from the beginning. Even though one practices Kevala Nirvikalpa Samadhi for years together, if one has not rooted out the vasanas, he will not attain salvation. (Sri Ramana Maharshi in Ramananda Swarnagiri, Crumbs from His Table. https://www.ramana-maharshi.org. Downloaded 10 September 2005, n.p.)
“Vasanas which do not obstruct Self-Realization remain [after Self-Realization]. In Yoga Vasistha two classes of vasanas are distinguished: those of enjoyment and those of bondage. The former remain even after Mukti [Sahaja] is attained, but the latter are destroyed by it. Attachment is the cause of binding vasanas, but enjoyment without attachment does not bind and continues even in Sahaja.” (Ramana Maharshi in S.S. Cohen, Guru Ramana. Memories and Notes. 6th edition. Tiruvannamalai: Sri Ramanasramam, 1993, 89.)