With the announcement of the delegations and the closeness of the arrival of our star family (see here), the value goes up of continuing to process all unfinished business.
All obstacles to the revealing of the always-already pure and innocent natural Self would best be removed.
Our star family is already in a higher-dimensional consciousness; anything we can do to meet them will pay dividends later, I predict.
In light of this need, I’m looking ever more closely at the mechanics of how I be and behave every day. As I do, one of things I observe is what I do when a depressing feeling hits.
I see I immediately spring into action, swinging at imaginary bad guys and making up excuses for some bolix I created. I become a scrapper and an expert at covering my tracks. (1)
I’m misery loving company, spreading my suffering far and wide. I become horribly Third-Dimensional when I feel depressed.
I haven’t yet located the primary wound that triggers me into this defensive behavior.
But I do see that there’s no part of me that responds by looking for ways to elevate my feelings. I’ve said it before: My constructed self is sad and mad, rather than glad.
I think we used to call the process I’m taking myself through “reparenting.” I may not get away with deconstructing one constructed self without building another – through reparenting.
What might it require? First off, I’ll need a mechanism to alert me to when I’m depressing myself. Then I’ll need a reason for changing up. Then I’ll need a mechanism to actually change up.
Then I need some tools to assess my progress and success. Finally I need a mechanism to remind me to congratulate myself for helping myself out of the quicksand of depression.
I’m my own experiment. Each time I feel in a depressed space, it’s my cue to begin experimenting with different solutions and watching the outcome. This is not my usual behavior so it’ll take commitment and consciousness.
If I’m going to succeed, it’ll be because I took charge of the process and did what needed to be done to make it work. (2)
(1) See “Looking Blameless – Part 1/2,” March 31, 2019, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/?p=300393 and “Looking Blameless – Part 2/2,” March 31, 2019, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/?p=300401
(2) Where is Wayne Dwyer when you need him?