Sanat Kumara once said: “All of you [are] angels and agents of change.” (1)
Well, if that’s the case, what would it look like to live up to being an angel? What would it look like to behave like an angel? How would an angel behave? I go where I am led and this line of inquiry is pressing itself upon me at this moment.
All last night I asked Archangel Michael, “How should I behave?” I was actually at the time connecting with some issues related to pride, which I’ll return to later in this article. But this line of inquiry (“How should I behave?”) pressed in on me.
I didn’t want to fail in my task. But more than that, I’m becoming convinced that there’s some hidden aspect to it, which I’ll also get to in a moment. This hidden aspect demands that I behave well.
This morning I walked to Starbucks, where I am now, and on the way I saw an orange Sun. The Sun was obscured by a relatively-thin but horizon-wide expanse of cloud. (2) Where it would have been gold ordinarily, now it was almost blood red.
And immediately I knew my attention was drawn to it as an answer to my question. When the Sun shines through the clouds like this, we can look at it. We can see it. If there were no clouds partially obscuring the sun, we’d have to avert our gaze. We wouldn’t actually see the Sun.
Can you then imagine a legion of angels in their full glory, walking the Earth. I don’t think anyone could take it. We have to tone it down and be toned down.
But that doesn’t mean we can’t act like the angels we are. The behavior can be as close as possible even if the light must be hid. Behave as an angel, then, but respect the need to present as a terrestrial.
I hear myself asking again: How do I need to behave to live up to my original responsibilities, make the Mother proud of me, and make Archangel Michael proud of me? AAM has said to me on occasion that this need to succeed in my mission is my key motivator – and it is.
In around 2011, Archangel Michael said to me in a reading: “Our credibility depends on you.” That was the beginning of my concern for how I behave because I realized that my behavior impacted the credibility of the Company of Heaven; especially, the galactics.
The Company of Heaven speak through channeled messages but we speak person-to-person. Who we are and how we behave will determine whether many people welcome the Company of Heaven or ignore and ridicule it (in a free will universe). Later on all that’ll change, but we’re talking about the middle-term future.
This need to pay attention to my behavior ties in with the “hidden” aspect of my mission. So let me seque there.
My real task comes later. It’s to act as a kind of Walter Cronkite for the galactics. The galactics’ landing, their meeting of Earth officials, their further discussions, arrangements, treaties, etc. – I’m to cover these with the same kind of neutrality, seriousness, and attention to detail that Walter did. I couldn’t think of anyone I’d rather pay homage to by imitating his standards than Walter Cronkite.
Let me illustrate the task at hand with a story.
When I first met Mata Amritanandamayi in Vancouver in 1991, she and her devotees were singing bhajans (religious hymns).
I watched how I behaved in our first meeting. I remember saying to my wife, “Watch the devotees. That will say a lot about the master.”
And the devotees were in loving resonance with Ammachi. I was impressed.
The master having passed that test, I remember next turning my attention to the master herself (Ammachi) and seeing that she was in bhava samadhi (ecstatic trance). That’s a very high state which I’d never seen before, only heard of from Sri Ramakrishna, and that clinched the deal for me. I accepted a mantra from her that very weekend.
It was the devotees’ attitude that convinced me to go further with Amma. If they had been slack and careless, I’d have casually judged the teacher to be slack and careless and turned away.
I went from devotees to master to bringing myself to the master.
We are the galactics’ credentials, their bona fides. People who want to know how they should feel about the galactic presence will look at how we’re relating to them, just as I looked at Amma’s devotees. We represent them. Their credibility depends on us, lightworkers – on how we relate to them, how we behave in their presence, how our values have been impacted by listening to them, etc.
So that’s another example of how pressure is building within me to act up to my, shall we say, prior responsibilities.
Finally issues connected with pride are simultaneously arising. I said I’d comment on them.
We usually focus on the need for all of us to love ourselves. But I’ve recently become aware of the need to be proud of myself.
My father on the one hand mercilessly banged away at my self-esteem. My mother on the other hand kept the flame alive by endlessly saying to me, “I’m proud of you, Stevie.”
I’d win scholarships for her good estimation, go on university exchanges, achieve student-political office, land on Dean’s Honor Rolls, all the time doing it to hear that she was proud of me. I don’t think I’ve ever really acknowledged how powerful an influence her pride in me was.
I usually talk about producing all this literature to show my Dad that I wasn’t a lazy, no-good good-for-nothing. But I see now it was as much to make my mother proud of me. (And there are other, long-term, mission-related reasons too.)
Well, that giving away of my power I have to take back, along with every other disempowerment of myself. If I’m the source of my love, then I need to love myself, actively, lavishly. If I’m the source of my self-esteem or lack therof, then I may want to start choosing to be proud of myself. Yes, I’ve noticed: Whatever we look for, we find.
I’m proud of me. I’m really, really proud of me. I set out to do something, to accomplish something, and I did it. (Sound of horn blowing, loudly, in the background.) There was lots of opposition, job loss, walking the financial razor’s edge to get here but I got here.
Archangel Michael and I once jested that, when we finally got to the finish line, we’d exclaim “We did it!”
Steve Beckow: After all our griping, watch us in the end say, “We did it!” [laughs]
Archangel Michael: Yes. You will want full credit. (3)
All along, it will probably have been the archangels and masters who helped the infant walk its first few steps while taking care of everything else.
I’m proud to be connected to this team – GAoG, Hope Chest, InLight Universal, Gaiascene, everyone in Vancouver and Bellingham, the whole of the West Coast Express (I think of you often, Gavin, Janine, Alan, Greg, Wajid, Sandra, Susan, Terry, Su, and everyone else).
I’m proud of what we accomplished in such a short period of time. And I’m proud that we’ve all found ways to hang on, cling on. Andrea’s computer shut down a dozen times a day before it died and you assisted her to replace it. Others don’t know where their rent will come from.
So many have left and I’m crying as I write this at the thought of their departure. I feel like a war veteran having come through the struggle to hold it all together (through your help) for these last five years.
I’m proud that we’re all of us ready for what comes next – responsible, committed, and joyous.
Yes, I’m in the space of conscious awareness and transformative love at this moment. I emerged partway through this article. I don’t remember when. And in this space, all of what I’ve just said seems crystal clear.
(1) “Transcript: Sanat Kumara – We Override Those who Want to Hurt by Anchoring Greater Peace Within – Part 2/2,” February 25, 2015, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/02/25/transcript-sanat-kumara-override-want-hurt-anchoring-greater-peace-within-part-22/.)
(2) I later learned it was smoke from a forest fire.
(3) Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow, through Linda Dillon, Oct. 29, 2014.