This kind of personally-transparent discussion that we’re having would have been quite common in the growth movement years ago. As such it not only comes easily to me; I hunger for it. Personal transparency was highly valued then. The person who could be more transparent than the rest was respected for pushing the frontiers of […]
Deconstructing the Constructed Self
If we’re looking for a synopsis of what we’ve been doing for the past three years in preparation for this phase of things, I’d like to suggest that what many of us have been doing is deconstructing the constructed self. What is the constructed self? Human beings have the unique ability to construct, with their […]
Escaping the Constructed Self – Part 5/5
The Structure of Realization Let’s switch from looking at the meditation that happened on one day and recover our view of the overall process that happened over several days, during which I was having one realization after another. We’re drawing back our focus here. I’d like you to notice the structure of what I’m raising […]
Escaping the Constructed Self – Part 4/5
The Process of Dawning Awareness and Progressive Realization What I want to do here is describe the process of dawning awareness and progressive realization that I went though to reach the heart and escape from the constructed self (only temporarily, alas) by healing a split in me. The process involves raising to awareness one’s own […]
Escaping the Constructed Self – Part 3/5
Bending the Twig, Inclining the Tree The twig was bentfrom my earliest years. I remember my Mom and Dad quarreling when I was in the womb and me saying to myself, “I don’t want to go out there.” As an infant, I had eczema and Mom and Dad would tie one arm to this side […]
Escaping the Constructed Self – Part 2/5
The process of progressive realization appears in Parts 4 and 5 of this series. For those who want to skip to that and leave the rest of the discussion, perhaps go to Part 4 and Part 5. Standing “Etherically Naked” Notice that when you stand up for something significant, like heading up a global project […]
Escaping the Constructed Self – Part 1/5
Every parent or spouse abusing another invites a circumstance of maladaptation in the one abused. We start out in life as angels and we may at some point become fallen angels, so to speak, in our own minds and in those of some in society. This invites such additional circumstances as low self-esteem, increasing denial, […]
So Why am I Not a Fount of Love?
I talked earlier about a “bound expression of love.” What causes it? I can only speak for myself. What binds my expression of love? Why am I not a fount of love like Farmgirl? (1) Immediately I recognize my vasanas standing in the way. Those traumatic memories of ancient incidents. The trauma carried forward from […]
Dropping the Sense of Doership: Three Stages
Sri Ramana said something that I’m noticing in my own experience these days and I’d like to elaborate on it, if you’d permit me. He said: “The old vasanas pertaining to the body, (mind and so on) are destroyed. Being free from body-consciousness one never has the sense of doership. “Since such a one has […]
How Now, My Love?
Given that: (1) My task is to go through Ascension publicly, in step with everybody, (2) Some other “first wavers” have already gone through the Ascension portal, as we discussed yesterday, (1) (3) Mass, physical Ascension is more a process than a snap, I’d like to map out more of the journey I’ve just completed […]
The Gawkiness of the Constructed Self
Reprinted from April 2013 Remember when we were gawky teenagers for whom the worst possible crisis was the appearance of a pimple? Remember what it felt like to manoeuver and manouever to get the attention of that new boy or girl at school only to meet them and see they had no interest in us? […]
Change Mastery Becoming Increasingly Important
A subject is bringing itself to my attention at this moment, looming as one of importance during the times ahead. There’s so much happening, so much changing, so much expanding occurring that I’m becoming aware of the importance of mastering stress and change. I was going to say “managing stress and change” but the need […]
The Possibility of the Re-Emergence of the Constructed Self
One of the unintended consequences of the Reval, when it comes, is that we may see the temporary re-emergence of the constructed self. The constructed self is the character or mask we build as a result and consequence of our vasanas, core issues and false grids. We fashion a representation of ourselves that’s designed to […]