Aug. 22, 2022 =
8 + 2 +22 =
22 + 22 + 11 + 22
(As good as it’s gonna get)
The reach of my observation keeps increasing. I’m now watching a decision I made some time ago extend itself throughout my consciousness.
This is something that would have gone on in the background of obviousness, to use Werner Erhart’s phrase, a short while ago.
In an unknown past, I reached the conclusion that, when I’m thinking or speaking negatively, I don’t have to have something to put in its place. I just need to stop. That’s the naked insight.
Just this morning I saw myself extend the reach of that statement to “you don’t have to have something to put in place of negative behavior either. Here too, you just have to stop.”
So, just to be clear, it had left the place of essentially personal guidance and entered the domain of public interaction – applied awareness. What that said to me is that I have assimilated the first insight and am now applying it. I watched myself do it.
To watch the flow of my consciousness as if I’m a chef picking up a pan and placing it somewhere else was awesome. For someone on the path of awareness.
And another thing.
I saw something fundamental about my moods. In the past, when something of importance happened that sent me deeper into myself to absorb it, I’d automatically feel fear. An initial and strange iciness. Hesitation.
When I now go deeper to have a look, I feel only peace. Not anything else. Just peace.
This is such a big change for me that I want to shout it from the rooftop
It proves to me that underneath the overburden of vasanas (or core issues) we are innocent and pure.
Also, seeing that I encounter purity and innocence when I go deeper makes a huge difference in moving from not trusting myself to trusting myself.
It’s probably mostly due to the rising energies but being on the awareness path is starting to pay dividends as well.
I’ve gone down through a few of my Number One vasanas recently – around my Mother’s death and Dad shouting at me until my personality shattered. Can it be, as Michael said in 2015 regarding love, that I’ve cleared the space for both this acuity of observation and the extended dropping of negativity? (1)
Previously I knew I was being negative. At best I’d be forcing and manipulating others to agree. At worst I’d be engaged in constant damage control.
Now I don’t have to do any of that. I can just stop and be me.
Have I cleared the passageway between my ordinary self and my pure and innocent Self? Wouldn’t I like to think that I have. I’m not sure.
I have no manual to consult. Whatever it means, I feel like weeping to have encountered my purity and innocence again when I went deeper. (2) It’s like a miner striking paydirt.
I shall bury the treasure again, where I found it in my neighbor’s field. I shall return to the world and sell all I have and buy that field. (3)
(1) “This [heart opening] occurs, not merely because you have asked for it, but because you (and this does apply to the collective) have done your, can we say, your homework, your due diligence. What we mean by this is simply, think of it in spatial reality, time and space reality: you have created the space for this [energy of love] to, not only pass by you like a passing breeze or a rain, but to anchor within you because there is a sense of this spaciousness within thee.” (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, March 13, 2015.)
That spaciousness is a result of clearing one’s vasanas: See Vasanas: Preparing For Ascension by Clearing Old Issues at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/Vasanas-Preparing-for-Ascension-R10.pdf
Don’t overlook watching a deeper level of consciousness acting on my everyday consciousness to have me stop the behavior. We call this the rise of conscience. Is it our Higher Self, now called back to us for this Ascension?
(2) The first time would have been at Xenia. I’ve experienced the Oversoul, on the other hand, twice. See An Ascension Ethnography at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/An-Ascension-Ethnography-5.pdf
(2) Buying that field is Ascension. Having felt the purity and innocence of the Self at Xenia, and then lost the experience again as will always happen short of Ascension (burying the treasure again), I let go of all other desires (sell all I have) to permanently know and feel the Self in Ascension (buying that field).
See “We Are, All of Us, Innocent and Pure,” April 7, 2020, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2020/04/07/307247/ and “Archangel Michael Explains What Happened at Xenia,” Sept. 22, 2018, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/09/22/archangel-michael-explains-what-happened-at-xenia/